Our New Fate

Chapter 33: Help me to find a new way.

Song used in this chapter: "My Escape" - Ravenscode 

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"You taught me to live each day

To live each day like it's my last"

Nam Soon's heart skipped a beat when he felt those lips on him. Heung Soo's scent, the smooth skin of his fingers touching his face, his breath brushing against his cheeks, the feeling of his soft lips against his, and his heart beating almost at the same rhythm as his own. It was supposed to be a perfect scene, but all Nam Soo wished to do was curse himself for it. Only a few seconds were enough to erase everything he had just promised himself. When Nam Soon finally decided that he should get over him for good, Heung Soo kissed him like nothing ever happened. He pulled away slowly, their foreheads still touching, his heart still beating anxiously. Heung Soo looked at him, and Nam Soon waited... For anything. Another kiss, or some words finally explaining what was going on in his mind.

"...Why?" Nam Soon whispered. Why, after just telling him to be just his friend... Why?

Heung Soo bit his lips, his fingers delicately touching the other's cheeks. However, when he opened his mouth to talk, the loud sound of the interphone pierced through the air.

"So this is how we planned it, knowing that we won't be alone.

And this is how it's supposed to be, when I knew it all along."

Nam Soon sighed, slowly pulling away from the other man and biting his lips as Heung Soo took a deep breath. He watched Heung Soo move away quietly.

Heung Soo picked up the interphone and opened the building's gate for Moo Yul. For those short minutes while they waited for Moo Yul, Heung Soo didn't say a thing. He stayed quiet as they waited. He knew he should, but how could he have this conversation in just a merely three minutes?

Nam Soon headed back to the fridge, getting a bottle of beer. He knew Heung Soo wouldn't talk. He knew this would be one of the most awkward meetings they already had. And, after everything, he didn't even wish Heung Soo a happy birthday.

"Don't let me slip away

I need you here till the very end"

It didn't even take five minutes for Moo Yul to go up to Heung Soo's apartment. He had a huge smile on his face, and was carrying a glass bowl of pasta - probably the same recipe he made for Heung Soo and Jin Ah some months ago. "Happy birthday!" He said happily, showing him the spaghetti he made "I was going to bring some soju, but forgot..." he apologized, as Heung Soo locked the apartment door behind the other.

"We have soju." Nam Soon prompted to get some bottles and put them over the dining table as he helped him with the bowl, putting it down alongside the soju. He was smiling a bit, and Heung Soo knew he was probably forcing it. Only if Moo Yul had come just a few minutes later...

"Yah, I hadn't seen these pictures before..." Moo Yul exclaimed, looking through the picture frames that they had over the central table in front of the television. "How old were you here?"

Heung Soo stared rather quickly at which photo he was talking about, and noticed it was one from their first year in school when they were around seven years old¹.