If I Can't Have You... (An EXO fan fiction)

Chapter Two

"You...you're weird.", Suho said.

I could feel his breath and his presence before me. It was giving me irrational thoughts and the heat rushed to my face. I could feel my veins thumping inside my ears. I have never had such encounter with a fellow guy before. As I haven't said enough, people probably branded me as an introverted person who wears her headphones all the time and not socialize. It's not that I'm antisocial, but I haven't found anyone that shares the same likes and interests as I do.

Before I could respond, D.O. appeared out of nowhere and piped in after being silent the whole time.

"What are you two doing?", he asked. I was caught off guard and the blood quickly subsided. My heart was beating its normal rate again.

"Nothing, we were just getting acquainted,", Suho smiled at D.O. He didn't let me respond to his claim of me being weird. He left me hanging and joined his members.

I got back to my senses and straightened my back. D.O. kept looking at me weirdly. His brows furrowed and he was no longer the smiling D.O. like he was earlier that night. He was frowning, but it was a low-key frown.

"Let's go.", he ushered me.

We got out to a white mini van, with four rows, the last two rows were a three-seater, the second row was a two-seater with a gap in the middle, and the front row was the driver's seat and the passenger's seat. Chen took the passenger's seat, with the manager driving, D.O. and Xiumin took the second row seats, Kai, Sehun and Suho took the last row seats and the rest of us took the remaining seats, which was me, Chanyeol and Baekhyun. I took the right spot as I couldn't stand the middle spot.

The driver ignited the car and we left the venue. Along the way, the guys talk about stuff regarding their schedule, that they were working on a winter album and I dozed off in the middle. I wanted to join in on the conversation but I felt I would be overstepping my boundaries.

"...for a living, Soojin-ssi?", I heard traces of my name mentioned.

"I'm sorry, what?", I broke off from my daze.

"I was saying, what do you do for a living Soojin-ssi?", Xiumin politely repeated his question. I scattered my brain to find the perfect answer. And I got none.

"Well, I was a high-school graduate, so currently I wasn't doing anything, though.", I answered.

"Wait, how old are you again, Sandals?", Chanyeol asked.

"I'm 19 years old.", I ignored his new nickname to me.

The guys gasped at my young age.

"Wah, this doesn't make sense, Soojin-ah. You totally look like a noona.", Baekhyun used an informal speech with me. I felt it was okay, since I was a lot younger than Sehun, the maknae.

"What is that supposed to mean, that I look old?", I pretended to be offended towards his claim.

"No, that's not what I meant, it's just that you look so mature.", Baekhyun quickly corrected his words.

"Yeah, you're very quiet and all, very different from the girls we usually meet.", Chen chimed in.

"I know I'm not the typical cheerful girl in Korea. Even my friends avoid me like I have the plague.", do I even have any friends, I thought to myself.

"Don't say that, you could hang with us.", Xiumin said. I smiled at him for saying that. I knew that they said these things just because they felt sorry for me. I did not have the looks, I did not have any dream or any future, and I did not have anyone close to me. Why did I feel so self-conscious all of a sudden? I never gave it any thought before.

After he said that, I was silent the whole car ride. The guys continued talking about their career, and I felt a little jealousy. I was jealous that they had something to be passionate about, they wake up each and everyday, getting excited on what they'd do on that day because it was their dream.

"Stop the car!", D.O. told the driver and the car stopped abruptly. I looked around as to what caused this sudden exclamation. Turns out, he simply wanted to go to the mini market to get some refreshment. He got back and carried a medium-sized black plastic bag.

"What did you get?", Chen turned his body backwards and started rummaging through D.O.'s goods.

"Don't touch it, it's mine.", he said while hitting Chen's hand.

"Hey, is that a way to treat your hyung?", Chen teased D.O.

"So, Sandals, do you have something you like doing? You must have something fun to do at home if you're not working any job.", Baekhyun joined the bandwagon on calling me 'Sandals'.

I glared at him but with a smile on my face, I replied, "Well, there are a few things I like to do. I write music, I play a couple of instruments, I could also carry a tune.", quite proudly.

"Wah, I can't believe you write music. Could you sing one of your songs to us?", Baekhyun asked.

"No...it's still raw music, well it's still nothing compared to your best-selling hits.", I replied modestly. Honestly, my music was so rookie-made, it never came out of my house. I felt like not even my parents know what kind of music I write.

"Sheesh, we really wanted to know what kind of music a girl like you could produce.", Baekhyun said with a pout. I smiled at that reaction. After my music discussion sizzled down, I hummed the melody of one of my musical innovation silently.

The car ride continued and finally, I arrived in front of my parents' house.

"Guys, it's been nice knowing you. Thank you for the ride and I'm sorry for the hassle.", I bowed to them.

"Hey it's alright!", "No worries", "Don't mention it", and a few kind responses chimed in.

I got down from the white van and started walking towards the entrance to my home. I heard footsteps behind me so I turned my back. It was D.O.

"Hey, I owe you a sandwich. I didn't know what kind it was, so I got you a tuna sandwich.", he handed me the plastic bag, nodded to me and went back into the van. His eyes never met mine.

I glanced at my right hand. He got into the mini market just to get me this? But why did he give it to me coldheartedly? He didn't even glance at me. I felt weird and grateful at the same time.

That night, as I close my eyes trying to doze off, I promised myself one thing.

I am never going to sleep early again.

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Author's Note:

Hey, it's me again :)) xx if you enjoy the story please give it a star per episode and tell your friends if she/he is an EXO-L 😊 thank you for your support and I'll see you in my next chapter ❤️