If I Can't Have You... (An EXO fan fiction)

Chapter Nine

We maintained eye contact until I felt our hearts beat as one. I was self-conscious of how messy I looked, my hair was in a crumpled bun, my dark circles stood out, my lips weren't stained anymore and I looked so bare-faced. I looked at his face and there was no single flaw. His skin was smooth and clear, his eyes were sincere, his lips were so full and he had the most serious expression on his face.

Suddenly, there was a soft knock on the door.

We blinked out of our gaze and he cleared his throat as we saw Xiumin came in the room.

"Oh, Kyungsoo-ya, let's have lunch first then continue the recording. Soojin-ah, join us!", Xiumin said with one hand on the door handle. After asking us to lunch, he instantly closed the door and the situation between me and Kyungsoo turned awkward. We had a moment, and honestly I was not well acquainted with an eye-to-eye contact.

"I'll head out first.", he got off the stool and headed towards the door without looking back.

I was silenced by his treatment. Why didn't he ask me to leave with him? We were both heading towards the same destination and we could've walked together. Was he disgusted by my peasant looks? It hurt me a bit.

After a while I decided to clean up my appearance a bit and gather up my music pieces and put it inside my bag. I intended to carry that bag around as I couldn't afford to lose the music scores. I would guard it with my life.

I went to the dining room. It wasn't grand, it looked like a typical house dining room with a refrigerator and a medium-sized dining table and a few seats. The chairs were all preoccupied by the members. I observed them before I made my presence noticeable. They kept chatting while they ate samgyetang (chicken stew), a whole package of odeng skewers (fish cake), and a serving of tteokbokki (spicy rice cakes). I felt rude by intruding their dynamic, they seemed to enjoy each other's company very much.

"Why is Sandals not here yet? Hyung, you asked her to come too right?", Chanyeol asked Xiumin.

"Of course! It was weird when Kyungsoo came without Soojin.", Xiumin nudged Kyungsoo while Kyungsoo shuffled around his food.

"Hyung, you should be nicer to Soojin. Without her, our life would come to an end.", Sehun said poetically.

"Sehunnie is right, D.O. You've been cold to her ever since day one.", Baekhyun pouted at him and he crossed both of his arms.

"I wasn't being cold, it's not like that.", Kyungsoo said in response.

"What were you doing with Soojin in the music room earlier?", Xiumin asked.

"You were in the music room alone? The two of you? Doors closed?", Suho asked with his voice raised.

"Hyung, calm down. It's not like they did something nasty together.", Chanyeol calmed him down as he gestured Suho to sit down. Suho didn't realize he stood up while interrogating Kyungsoo.

Before I could even hear Kyungsoo answer, I entered the room.

"Hi members.", I tried to sound cheerful.

"It's about time you arrive! I almost ate your portion!", Baekhyun stuffed more odeng into his mouth.

"I'll just make you buy me more.", I stuck out my tongue at him.

"Here, Sandals, sit with me.", Chanyeol tapped a seat beside him. Beside that empty seat was Suho, pretending to fix his perfectly-done hair.

I ignored Suho and took a seat. Chanyeol grabbed me a bowl of rice, a spoon and a pair of chopsticks. He even grabbed a piece of chicken from the samgyetang and put it on top of my rice.