If I Can't Have You... (An EXO fan fiction)

Chapter Twelve

When I woke up the next morning, the house was silent once again. Another note was stuck on the fridge, saying that they left early and will be home late because of rehearsals and their schedule. They didn't elaborate whether if the schedule involved music programs or photoshoots or recording. I was just simply left hanging. I looked at my text to Kyungsoo to see if he replied. He never got to read it.

I went back to my bedroom. So it was like this. They had extracted my source of inspiration and when they already had a grasp of it, they decided I was no longer of use and I should just be disposed. I thought long and hard. It wasn't the members' fault. They never wanted to treat me like this. Or at least it's what I wanted to believe.

This must be the SM higher uppers' plan all along. And I was quite gullible to be talked into signing the contract. No, it wasn't a contract. Just a form of consent. So...it was worse then!? I wasn't significant enough to sign a contract? I shook my head sarcastically.

It was so quiet and I felt a little lonely. I really wanted to know where they were, but I was afraid I would be a burden. I didn't know who to contact either, all I had was Kyungsoo and Gyeongjun the driver's phone number. Calling Kyungsoo was probably not a good idea, he might be busy and I didn't want to cause him any trouble. Calling Gyeongjun was also not an option, what if he thought of me as if I was a stalker.

I'd decided to play it cool and just go out on my own. What could go wrong?

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I went to Myeongdong to do some shopping. I loved shopping alone. Nobody had to judge what I bought, nobody had to force me to buy something I didn't need, and it was a refreshing moment for me. I picked up a few sweaters and a couple pair of colorful socks. I also bought a beanie, because winter was approaching and my beanie was either destroyed or it smelled like I hadn't showered for days.

This time I had no problem taking the bus as I went home after the rush hour. I wanted to go eat by myself but it would seem bleak that I figured I would just order in. I also noticed that around town, there were EXO's faces everywhere! They even endorsed the skincare brand Nature Republic. I laughed at their ridiculous faces and decided to buy one of their hand creams.

It was 8:12 p.m when I arrived back home. The house was still dark and there was no sign of life. Figures. Guess I'd be alone again tonight.

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I was half asleep and then I heard a loud thud downstairs. I looked at the time and it was 2 a.m. Who would be this loud at wee hours?! I quickly slapped myself to full awareness and tied my hair up. If there was a thug or a robber downstairs, I'd be ready. I looked in my room for a weapon, whether it be a baseball bat or a rolled-up newspaper. There was a tube of pipe and it was hard enough, so I grabbed hold of that.

I opened my door, tried to make the creaking less noticeable. The whole second floor was dark. I wondered if the boys had gotten home yet. Were they sleeping soundly? I tried to make my capture soundless as I didn't want to wake them after a long day.

I descended the stairs carefully, my whole blood was rushing with adrenaline. A few lights were on in the kitchen, I heard a few voices whispering. They were male voices...did they come as a group!? My heart was beating so loud, what if I was killed in the action. There were still so many things I wanted to eat, so many things I wanted to do, so many places to travel to. My life flashed before my eyes.

They kept whispering, but I couldn't make up the words. The voices were so low, it sounded like mumbling. Were they discussing to go up or not?! Did they not find anything valuable downstairs? I could not jeopardize the safety of the EXO members and their belongings so I just jumped into the kitchen while holding out my pipe.