Ashton's P.O.V.
The next day, I woke up cuddled in Luke's arms. Calum shook the both of us awake and smiled.
"We need to start writing a little bit today, so I was hoping Ash and I could go around for a bit to write?" Calum said, but it came out as more of a question than a statement.
"Why Ash?" Luke asked, pulling me closer to his chest.
"Well, he...I...I just...can I just go with Ash, please? And you can write songs with Michael," Calum sounded a bit nervous and I turned around to face Luke.
"It's okay, Lukey," I assured him.
"Mine," he grumbled and pulled me a little closer.
"Luke, it's okay," I laughed and he pouted.
"But-"
"It's okay," I lightly pecked his lips and giggled. "It'll be fine."
I crawled out of the bunk and quickly changed before washing my face and brushing my teeth. I ran my fingers through my hair and lightly pecked Luke's lips.
"I'll be back, okay?"
"Bye Ashy," he mumbled lazily and I giggled before walking with Calum out of the tour bus. We walked in silence for a bit before Calum found a park and rushed towards a gap in the trees. I sighed before running after him. Calum from a spot secluded from everybody and we sat down. Calum handed me a notebook and pen and I took them.
"Let's get to work," he mumbled before starting to write.
I sighed and started writing too.
Luke's P.O.V.
I woke up, realizing Ashton wasn't beside me. What the hell-
That's right. He went to write with Calum. Duh.
"So you're awake," Michael said and I jumped so hi8gh, my head hit the bunk above me.
"Damn you Michael," I cursed and he didn't look at all amused.
"Where are Cal and Ash?" he asked sternly and I felt my eyes widen.
"They went to go write," I told him and he stared at me.
"Why didn't you go with them?"
"They wanted to go alone."
"You do realize what they could be doing, right?"
"Writing songs...?"
"They could be cheating."
"Ashton wouldn't do that to me. Neither would Calum."
"You don't know that."
"Wait..." I stopped and looked at Michael. "You just don't want Calum alone with Ashton, is that what it is?" Michael blushed.
"Well, I um...you see..."
"I knew it. But you know what we should do?"
"What?"
"Write songs."
Ashton's P.O.V.
I want to die.
I want to so badly.
I shouldn't have gotten so attached to Luke.
Now it's going to be even harder.
And I don't want to hurt him.
But oh well.
He'll find someone better.
Funnier.
Smarter.
More attractive.
I mean, the list goes on and on.
I want to die by pills and alcohol.
It just seems calmer, and easier.
But it's slow.
Maybe I should just shoot myself.
Or stand in front of a train.
I want it to be quick and painless.
I don't want anyone to find me.
I don't want Luke to find me.
I want to just disappear and die somewhere where no one will find me.
That way, I'm not hurting anyone.
I hate people.
I just want to di-
"Whatcha writing?" Calum asked, peeking over my shoulder. I quickly moved the paper out of his line of sight and folded it up, before shoving it in my pocket. "If you show me, I'll show you."
"It's...it's nothing special, okay?"
"Lemme see." Calum snatched it out of my pocket and quickly climbed up a tree before opening it up. Well shit. I sighed and slumped against the tree. A few seconds later, he came down. "You want to die?" he asked. I stared at my feet.
"I didn't want you to read it."
"You want to die?" Calum repeated and I continued to stare at my feet.
"Yes," I admitted and looked up at Calum before pulling up my sleeve to show him the cuts.
"Those look deep, Ash." Calum grabbed my hand and inspected them closer. "You want to leave Luke? How could you? He's just as fragile as you are! You have no right to leave him, ever!" Calum yelled and I cringed. "Don't you hear me, Ash? Look at me. Look. At. Me!" I looked up at Calum, to see his eyes dark with anger. "If you leave, you'll be no better than the people who made you want to kill yourself, you know why? Because you're pathetic," he spat and I stared up at him, unable to speak. "News flash, Ashton. Suicide is a very selfish thing to do. And I would have never thought you were a selfish person. You never have been. But you know what?" He took a step closer to me. "Maybe you should prove me wrong."
That was severely uncalled for. And I know Calum knew it too, but I don't think he'd admit it. I stared at him for about three seconds, before turning on my heel and walking away. He didn't say anything. He didn't come after me.
I felt tears prick at the back of my eyes and I blinked them back, before I started running to the bus. I finally got there and ran in, finding Michael and Calum on the couch, discussing something. They looked up at me. Luke quickly stood up and wrapped his arms around me. That's when I broke down. I sobbed into Luke's chest, and he just held me, letting me get it all out.
"What happened, Ash?" Luke asked, kissing the top of my head.
"Calum," I whispered. "He said some really bad things and I-"
"Where is he?" Michael asked.
"The park across the street," I told him.
"I'll go talk to him." Then he left. Luke wiped my cheeks.
"Wanna talk about it?"
I nodded and Luke led me over to the couch, before sitting us down.
I told him about what I had wrote, and what Calum had said and done, and he just sat there and listened. After I was done, Luke sighed.
"Calum said that?" I nodded. He sighed again. "I just...I don't know what you should do, Ash. I mean, Calum's your best friend, you can't hate him. Even though what he said was really bad, you can't hate him. I don't hate him. Yeah, I'm mad at him, but...he doesn't understand, and I don't think he ever will. Just give him time to cool off, okay? He's probably just stressed."
I nodded and Luke smiled at me, before pecking my lips. He pulled me against his chest, and whispered in my hair, "You're perfect to me."
A/N: So yah this was short...I hate when it's short...sigh....but anyway, IDEK RN but yeah so...yeah...ok
