Ashton's P.O.V.
To be honest, I hated waking up. Waking up was the worst decision my brain ever made. I just wanted to sleep forever. I just wanted to die. Even more than I already did. If that's possible.
I felt Luke's warm chest against my back and noticed his steady breathing. Right now, I hated my lungs for working properly. Luke's hot breath tickled the back of my neck a bit and I looked back at him to noticed tear stained cheeks.
Don't give in.
I won't. I can't.
Exactly. He's exactly what I told you he was. He's just putting on an act to hurt you more. Don't trust him.
I'm not going to.
You said you hated yourself for breathing, right? Then simply stop breathing, it's that simple.
I smirked to myself.
Perfect.
I gulped in air and held it. I counted up the seconds.
One. Two. Three.
This isn't so bad, eh?
Ten. Eleven. Thirteen.
Imagine his face when he finds you dead.
Twenty. Twenty-One. Twenty-Two.
Let him take the blame.
Thirty. Thirty-One. Thirty-Two.
Make him feel guilty.
Forty. Forty-One. Forty-Two.
"Ashton?" Luke mumbled and I squeezed my eyes shut as I started feeling lightheaded.
Fifty. Fifty-One. Fifftteeyy-
My mind started going hazy.
"Ashton? Ashton! What the hell?!?"
I lost track of the seconds.
"What's wrong?" Calum asked.
"He's not breathing!" Luke sounded panicked.
I can't leave Michael and Calum...and the fans, my family...
Too late.
Blackness.
Luke's P.O.V.
Imagine my surprise when I woke up and my boyfriend wasn't fucking breathing.
But his heart was beating.
Very fast, very scarily fast, but I didn't care. It was still beating, and that's what mattered right now.
I was straddling his waist, shaking his shoulders. I couldn't think straight. (Pun intended oMG DON'T HATE ME LOL)
"Ashton! Please start fucking breathing! You can't leave me like this, no! PLEASE!"
"I'm calling the ambulance right now, keep trying!" Calum yelled, panic in his voice.
"Ashton Fletcher Irwin! PLEASE!" I felt tears rush down my cheeks as I continued to shake his shoulders.
"Do mouth to mouth, chest compressions, something!" Michael yelled at me.
