EX-tra Ordinary Friends [COMPLETED]

Should I Stop?

POV ni Kulot

"I decline your business proposal"

Tuluyan ng bumagsak ang Luha sa mga mata ko habang naglalakad ako palayo kay Erik

He deserves that. I'm hurt. I'm in pain. For the second time. Tama na yun.

Tama na ang pagpapakatanga, ubos na ubos na ako eh

Pero fuck my feelings. There is still a part of me na gustong um-oo, magpakatanga at......kiligin at nanghihinayang kung bakit ko dinecline ang business proposal niya

I hate that I'm happy at the thought that he loves me

Pero mas malakas parin ang part saakin na sinasabing

Totoo ba na mahal ka niya? Pagkatapos ka niyang saktan sasabihin niyang mahal ka niya. Makatotohan ba yan? Does he really love you or baka naman kailangan ka ulit niya kasi gagamitin ka ulit niya tulad ng dati?

Ang daming nasa utak ko

As much as I want to believe him....I can't. It really hurts to the point that I can't afford to trust him again

My brain is telling me to stop making yourself a fool but my foolish heart wants me to be like her---Foolish

Pagpasok Kong muli sa venue ay nakita ko si Dingdong na nakikipag-usap kay Ms. Rivera

The guiltiness is striking me again. Its an awful feeling

I wiped my tears fastly as he turned to look at me

He smiled at me and base sa actions niya ay nagpaalam siya kay Ms. Rivera na pupunta siya saakin

He walked towards me and the guilty feeling is getting heavier

Why am I feeling this way?

Wala naman akong ginawa ah. I did the right thing actually. I declined Erik.

Dahil siguro deep inside of me I'm not being true to myself? Particularly, to my feelings.

Am I still in love with Dingdong? Scratch that. Am I in love with Dingdong?

"Hey, tulala ka? Don't say ngayon ka lang natulala sa kagwapuhan ko kasi kanina pa tayo magkasama" sabi ni Dingdong

Andyan na pala siya sa harapan ko. Hindi ko man lang napansin.

With no hesitation I hugged him

"Hey, is everything alright?" Bakas sa boses niya ang pag-aalala sa bigla kong pagyakap

"Yeah" sagot ko, stopping myself to sound like I'm about to cry which is really true

"I know that voice, K"

He knows me that well "No, I'm not"

Hindi ko na napigilan at tumulo na nga ang Luha na pinipigilan ko

Humiwalay naman siya saakin at tinignan ako ng mataman sa mata

Pinunasan naman niya ang Luha sa pisngi ko

"What is it?" He asked cupping my face

I touched his hand "C-Can we talk tomorrow?"

Tinanggal naman niya ang kamay niya sa mukha ko. And his worried expression was changed into a serious one.

"Is it about us?" Tanong niya

I can see pain in his eyes

I painfully nodded