sworn to silence → lashton ✓

four

Luke's POV

"Please stop!" I squealed as Ryan pounded painfully into me, "You're hurting me!"

"Shut up." Ryan growled and I tried not to choke from the tears that were flowing rapidly down my face, I was in a lot of pain and not enjoying what was happening at all, unlike Ryan.

"Please just stop!" I cried again and this time Ryan pulled out from me and flipped me around to face him before squeezing my neck with one of his large hands.

"Stop with the fucking whining, I'm showing you that you are my fuck toy and no one else's, especially not Ashton's." He seethed and he went to flip me over again but I started fighting him, I didn't want this and he was hurting me which just made it worse, "Don't fight me Luke, it'll just make it worse and you know it."

I continued to push at him despite his words, "Please just get off of me!" He was stronger than me and so I was at a disadvantage already, more so when he punched me.

My head snapped to the side and I immediately felt my left eye start throbbing, I cried harder and brought my hands up to my face, finally giving up on fighting against him. Ryan then grabbed my arms and pulled them away from my face, pinning them down to the bed as he pressed his face close to mine, "Why are you fighting me, Luke?" 

Looking up at him through tear eyes, I tried to hold back my sobs as I answered, "I don't want this."

Ryan smirked before releasing on my arms so he could use his hand to trace a finger down my cheek, "Oh babe, I'm just trying to show you that you're my fuck toy, you're not allowed to be anyone else's."

I turned my face towards away from him as I cried even harder, "Please just let go, I don't want to do this, it hurts too much."

"Just shut up." Ryan spat as he flipped me back over, somehow managing to hold me down with just one arm. The positing and the pain had me sobbing, more so when Ryan just continued where he left off, not showing any mercy and not giving a damn about how much it was really hurting me. 

When he was finished, I was left a sobbing mess, all I could feel was the pain in my bum and how much my eye was throbbing. "Would you stop crying?" Ryan snapped at me but I just continued to sob, causing him to grab me, "Stop crying! Just stop!" He shook me slightly whilst he was shouting, and I bit back a whimper because I didn't want to make myself look any weaker.

"What has gotten into you today?" He then asked, seemingly confused at my behaviour. 

"I don't want to do this, any of this." I told him honestly.

Ryan glared, "Is this Ashton's fault?"

Shaking my head, I was quick to answer, "No! I've just never wanted this, you're making me do it and I don't want to."

He didn't seem convinced with my response, frowning further as he accused, "You've told him haven't you? You've told someone about what I'm doing." His grip on me was tightening by the second, "You're fighting me because someone knows and you think you don't have to do this anymore." 

"N-no, I promise I didn't tell anyone." 

Ryan seemed to think for a moment and I almost breathed a sigh of relief when he released his grip somewhat and his expression softened, "Hm," He hummed, "You better not have, because I'd hate to have to do anything to that precious Ashton of yours." He whispered close to my ear. 

Turning my head to look at him, I saw him smirking and I felt disgusted; I was wrapped around his finger, terrified to do anything slightly out of place and he knew it.

Walking into school the next day was hard, I was trying to keep my head down without walking into people, I obviously had to look up at some points and did so when I got to my locker; that's when Ashton walked up to me." 

"Hey Luke, ho-what the hell happened to your eye?!" He cut off his greeting with a panicked question, I could see him looking at the bruising around my eye and I had to quickly come up with an excuse. 

"I-I hit myself in the eye with the vaccum pipe when I was trying to get it out." I almost cringed at my own response, knowing it was ridiculous. You're stupid Luke, so fucking stupid.

"Come off it, what actually happened?" Ashton frowned. 

"Exactly that, the pipe got stuck when I was getting it out and I yanked on it and it came lose but I managed to hit myself in the face." I explained, deciding it'd be less suspicious if I just stuck with the lie, and trying to sound more convinced of my own answer so that he'd buy it. 

Ashton eyed me suspiciously before saying, "Fine, I'll take that as an answer but if I found out you've lied then I'm going to be really upset." 

Great, what a way to make me feel worse.

"Can we just go to lesson?" I asked and Ashton nodded, beginning to head to our first lesson which I was almost dreading because it was the one lesson I had with Ryan. He smirked when he saw me enter the room, but I did my best to ignore him, I didn't need more questions today. 

Of course that wasn't meant to be as Calum and Michael both asked about my eye before I'd even sat down. "Guys, I'm fine. I just hit myself in the eye with a vacuum pipe when I was trying to get it out because it got stuck." I tried telling the pair and I even added in a fake laugh and smile to make it more realistic; they seemed to believe me more than Ashton.

"Wow, you can be silly sometimes can't you, Lu?" Calum, who was sat next to me, ruffled my hair and I pushed him away slightly.

"Don't touch my hair!" I shouted, causing all three boys to laugh at me, "Ash, tell him not to mess with my hair." I pouted at Ashton but he just rolled his eyes and brought me into a side hug.

"Don't touch his hair, Cal, you're upsetting him"

"I'm sorry, Lu." Calum apologised but I couldn't help but laugh at how stupid we were being. I enjoy it when I can be like this, even if it is for a brief amount of time. I guess this is what keeps me going, without it I honestly wouldn't see the point in continuing anymore.

As Ashton hugged me, I could feel eyes burning into the back of my head and I turned to see Ryan staring at us. Great. I had no doubt that he'd bring this up later and that wasn't going to be a good thing for me. 

I honestly just really wanted to be free from all of this. 

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A/N: Ok, I know this was short and it's terrible as well, this did not go how I wanted it to but I cannot be bothered trying to re-write it so I guess I'm just going to have to stick with it.

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