sworn to silence → lashton ✓

eighteen

Ashton's POV

Luke and I were currently lying in his bed, he was asleep whilst I laid there wide awake. I couldn't sleep but I was finding some peace in looking at his sleeping form, in a non-creepy way, he still looked beautiful despite his large black eye and the other cuts on his face. The fact he was cuddle into me made me want to coo because it was adorable. 

I was honestly so glad that he was okay, he may not believe that I love him and that I think he's worth everything but as long as he was here and safe then I didn't care. However, the thought of him hurting did hurt me but I was going to make sure Ryan would pay for what he did to Luke. Calum and Michael were bound to help me, they hated the bastard too and I'd never seen Calum so mad before.

If given the chance, he'd properly kill Ryan there and then and as much as that idea sounds appealing, I did not want to be arrested, etc.

Sighing slightly, I started to gently run my fingers through his hair, thinking about how content I was in this moment. Having him tucked up against me brought me a great sense of joy, I really thought I was lucky to have him because I'd liked him for so long and I'd convinced myself that he wouldn't like me. However, it appeared that he convinced himself of the same thing, his coping mechanism was just a lot more drastic than mine.

He started to stir and I smiled as his blue eyes opened and found mine, "Hi, beautiful."

A small smile then made its way across his face; I didn't mind that it was small as long as he smiled at least somewhat. That at least showed he was little happy.

"Hi." Luke whispered back, obviously still tired.

"How are you feeling?"

"Alright, I guess."

"You need to take your medicine, alright babe? I'll go get it." Leaning down, I kissed his forehead before getting up to retrieve his medication and some food.

When I returned, I saw Luke hadn't moved and his eyes were shut again. Placing the stuff I had in my hands down on the bedside table, I brushed the hair from his forehead and spoke softly, "Come on, Lu, I got you some food and you need to take your tablets."

He groaned and rolled over slightly, trying to tell me he wanted to sleep some more but I refused to let that happen because he'd slept for long enough and I kind of missed him, not to sound like a clingy boyfriend or anything. "But I'm tired." He mumbled after he rolled over.

"Awh baby, I know but you gotta get up." I rolled him back over and he had a pout on his face which I thought was adorable.

"Do you want me to get sleep deprivation?"

"Babe, you're going to get anything but sleep deprivation with the hours you sleep now get up." I ordered, laughing lightly as he started to pout, but he sat up nevertheless. "Will you stop pouting, you're making me feel guilty."

"Good." Luke said before continuing to pout and adding folding his arms to the equation of making me feel guilty.

"Lu, don't be mean." I crawled onto the bed and sat on my knees next to him, he refused to remove his pout. Leaning forward, I kissed his cheek and when that didn't work I placed one hand on the side of his face and started to kiss all over his face. His pout was lost when I kissed his nose.

"Ew." He scrunched up his face but it held a smile too.

"Don't act like you don't love it."

"You're a weirdo." He laughed at me.

"Only when I'm with you." I pressed a kiss to his cheek before moving back and grabbing the food and pushing towards Luke and telling him to eat it before taking his tablets.

He ate the food really slowly but ate it nevertheless, I was happy he was eating because I really didn't want to find out he had an eating disorder as well as depression, that would be a little hard to handle.

Once he'd taken his tablets, I decided I should ask, "Hey, how are you with the self-harm?"

He looked down at the bowl that once held his breakfast and told me truthfully, "I've thought about it but I'm trying to resist the urge, mainly for you."

"I am proud of you, for trying to stop, I understand that it must be hard but I'm proud of you for trying so if you ever feel like you need to cut please come and tell me, I'm going to try help you get through this ok?"

"Ok." He simply said and it was then that I moved his bowl and brought him into a hug.

"I love you, you can get through this."

"I love you too and I'll try."

I pulled back from the hug, only to lean forward so I could kiss him properly, he kissed back without hesitation.

"Luke, mum asked me t-Ew! I did not need to see that." Luke's brother, Jack, exclaimed as he walked into Luke's room which caused me and Luke to pull away from each other.

Luke just laughed at his brother before saying, "That's what you get for not knocking." He looked smug.

"Well I am never not going to knock in the future, I really don't want to see that again." Jack scrunched his face up slightly and but laughed slightly, obviously not too bothered.

"Anyway, what did Mum ask?" Luke questioned.

"Oh right yeah, she just asked if you two could come down, she wants to speak with you."

"Okay, we'll be down in a minute."

"You better be, don't need a grumpy mum now do we?" Luke shook his head.

Jack then left the room, closing the door after him. "We should get dressed." I nodded in agreement.

"I wonder what she wants to talk about."

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A/N: So I made a little bit of a fluffy chapter as I've had so many sad ones so this is what happened, it's crap I know.

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