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seventeen

A/N: Dedication to mimoucha97 because she's amazing, she was really there for me when I needed her and she continues to be there for me and I honestly can't thank her enough but I know how much she loves this book and so I thought it'd be a nice way to thank her since I have no other way to do it xx

Luke's POV

"Ash! I'm so glad you're here." I somewhat shouted as Ashton entered the room, not long after Michael left.

"Michael said something about Ryan, are you okay? What happened?" Ashton was a little frantic as he made his way over to me and grabbed my face.

"He came here when you guys left and he threatened to hurt you because he knows I told you and I'm just a little shaken up and I just needed to see you." I was being honest with him, there was no point in trying to pretend I wasn't afraid because he'd see through it and I knew Ryan was being serious and I'd seen what he can do.

"Hey, don't worry about me. I'll be fine, we need to worry about you being safe from him, not me." Ashton spoke in a soft voice and gently stroked my cheeks.

"No but he's serious, I know he is. You need to be careful, so do Calum and Michael."

"Babe, calm down okay? You're going to work yourself up." Ashton was tryng to relax me, trying to reassure me things would be fine. 

Shaking my head, I said, "I can't calm down when he plans on hurting you, I'm used to it but I can't stand the thought of him hurting you."

"Oh Luke." Ashton sighed, bringing me into a hug, rubbing at my back, "Everything is going to be fine, alright?"

"You don't know him like I do though, Ashton, he's serious." I pulled out from the hug and tried getting Ashton to realise that I was being serious and Ryan's threat wasn't something to pass off as a joke.

"Look, Luke, we're all going to look out for each other and make sure we're all okay but my main concern is you right now."

"But why am I the concern when you're in the most danger?"

"Because he's the reason you're here and he will take every opportunity he gets to hurt you because you 'disobeyed him'" Ashton said using air quotations.

"Which is why you need to worry about yourself more than me because he'll take every opportunity to hurt me, don't you see that he means he'll hurt you?" Ashton sighed and brought me into another hug, pressing his lips to my head as he did so, "Just promise me you'll watch out for yourself?" I whispered and I heard Ashton mumble,

"I promise."

We stayed like that for a few minutes, only being broken apart by the door opening which revealed the nurse, Calum and Michael.

"Good afternoon, Mr Hemmings." The nurse greeted politely, I cringed at the term 'Mr'. "We've checked your test results and it appears that you are allowed to leave. We'll just get you to sign some papers for your medication prescription and then you're free to go." She informed with a smile and I smiled back whilst Ashton replied,

"Thank you, nurse." The nurse then left the room as Michael and Calum entered.

"I am so glad you're okay, Luke." Michael said as he brought me into a hug, I smiled over Michael's shoulder as I saw Calum smiling at us.

Pulling away, Calum then replaced Michael's place before I was finally released and allowed to get out of the bed, with the aid of Ashton. Swinging my legs over the side, Ashton stood in front of me ready to catch me in case I fell, just in case my legs were still a little wobbly from the events that occurred to put me here.

I successfully stood without a problem and I made my way over to my clothes that were on the other side of the room, Ashton was following me with his arms open and I couldn't help but chuckle.

"Ash, I'm fine, you don't have to act like I'm going to fall at any moment."

"Luke, I saw what happened and so I'm not taking any chances right now, it wasn't that long ago that you were first admitted so shoot me for still being worried." He argued with me and I couldn't help but smile at his concern, it was kind of cute.

"But can I at least have privacy whilst I get changed?" I looked up at Ashton with pleading eyes and he just nodded and signalled for Calum and Michael to leave, "I meant you too you know?"

"I'm not taking any chances so I'm just going to turn around."

I chuckled again as he faced the door, I quickly got changed and tapped him on the shoulder when I was done. He turned to face me with a smile on his face, "What are you smiling at?" I asked him. 

"I get to take you home, first time as boyfriends."

"We're boyfriends?" I asked and Ashton then looked a little nervous.

"Do you want to be?"

Smiling, I nodded my head and said, "Of course, I'd loved to be." Ashton then smiled himself before kissing my lips and bringing me into a hug.

"I love you."

"I love you too." I mumbled into Ashton's neck.

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"Oh my baby!" Was the first thing I heard when I arrived home with Ashton, it was my mum and she immediately engulfed me into a hug.

"Hi, mum." I said as she pushed me back.

"I go on a trip for a few days and get a call saying you were in hospital, I was so worried Luke and all I get is a 'hi mum'"

"I'm sorry."

Sighing, she pulled me into another hug. "I was so worried about you Luke."

"I'm sorry, it wasn't meant to happen like this."

"Please just don't do it again, the self-harm I mean. I couldn't cope with losing you Luke, even the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach. I love you Luke, you're my son, no matter what you can always talk to me." A tear slipped from her eye and I felt guilty, I never really thought about the consequences of my death would have. In the moment I was just consumed with the thought of the never ending pain that I didn't think about the pain my death would cause for my mother. Wow, I was a shit son.

"I'm sorry, mum. I love you, I'm sorry."

She smiled slightly and wiped her eye before saying, "I'm going to make diner, Ashton please take him upstairs."

Ashton nodded and took my hand before leading me to my room and making me sit down on my bed. He joined me on the bed and I rested my head on his shoulder.

"Thanks Ashton."

"For what?"

"For explaining to my mum about this whole thing, I don't think I could have done it."

"How did you know it was me?"

"It's who you are and I love you for that."

"I love you too, Luke." He then pressed a kiss to my head.

I sighed contently and I felt ok for the first time in a long long time.

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A/N: Chapter 17, wooh! Hope you liked it, I don't really but oh well, I can't be arsed trying to change it.

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