I was sitting outside of my house the next morning when Johnny’s car came down the driveway. I didn’t know what to think about that, it kind of pissed me off to see him. He got out the car and walked slowly over to me. When he seen my tear stained face his pace picked up a bit.
"I’m sorry Tara. I really am. I hate myself for acting that way." He told me as he hugged me.
I just sat there not moving a muscle, I was too weak to do anything. I was too weak to tell him to get off of me, too weak to tell him how I really felt and too weak to give a damn.
"It’s over isn’t it?" Johnny asked after he sat there for a while.
I just nodded, that was good enough.
"I really fucked up this time, I was so selfish and I’m so sorry. I just want you to know that I do love you. With all of my heart, there hasn’t been a question about that since I met you. I just wish I could take all the bad that I’ve done to you away. Maybe then you would love me too."
About the time he said that the screen door opened and Josh walked out on the porch. Josh had red-puffy eyes that matched mine and his had a hint of tiredness in them. He had been staying up with me since I couldn’t sleep. Johnny seen Josh walk out looking that way and without hesitation walked up to him and hugged him. Seeing that made me begin crying again.
"I’m here for you brother. I always will be." Johnny told him as he hugged Josh.
"Thanks man." Josh said before pulling away from Johnny. "You need to be there for her though."
"I know man, that's what I came here to do. I had to come tell her I was sorry for the way I acted."
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I was sitting on the porch swing just watching the sun set when Josh walked out and sat down beside me. I sat there mute, it was like I had lost my ability to talk when I lost Jody.
"You want something to eat?" Josh asked as he put his hand on my knee.
I just shook my head.
"You need to eat, Tara. That's not good for you."
I didn't answer just kept my head turned away from him. I didn't eat anything, I couldn't eat anything. I just couldn't build up enough energy for it.
"Tara..."
"Josh, please. I can't. I can't eat." I cried, he wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. "I don't know what to do without her, Josh. She was always there for me when I was hurting. Now, when I hurt the most she's not there for me. Tomorrow I have to say b-b-ye. How in the hell am I going to do that?"
"Baby, I don't know what to tell you but I can tell you that I will be right beside you through it all."
"I broke up with Johnny today and it didn't even hurt Josh. It was like nothing happened, like I never had feelings for him to begin with."
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Small Town Southern Charm
Novela JuvenilTaralyn loved living in her small town. Not much went on there and she loved it that way. She loved all of it's southern charm unlike most of the people. Everything was fine until a guy and his obnoxious sister showed up.
