New In The Territories (Book 1) COMPLETED

Chapter 56 Sam

Finally pulling my eyes away from the most magnificent and terrifying thing I had ever saw. The first pair of eyes I came to was Mady's. Finally my brain had caught up to the rest of my body. "Are you? When? Why?" I asked, hurt and pissed that she never told me.

Mady knew what I was feeling. The shame in her eyes was a pretty good tell. She answered softly, "Four years ago, after I married Nate."

Everything that had been said over the past few minutes flooded back. What I was, what they were, and how they reacted to me and me to them.

Facing the beautiful Dmitri, this amazing man was a wolf. That was when realization hit and hit hard. This, so called power I held over them was the only reason this amazing gorgeous man had feelings for me to begin with. I could have been the least attractive person, in and out, in the world and he would still feel the same way.

Eyes burned, stomach threatened to unload all its contents. My arms crossed around my midsection to keep my emotions in instead of falling apart in front of all these people. The laugh that bubbled up was an unpleasant one. Looking into those ocean blue eyes then gasped between the bitter laugh turning into a sob, "It was never real." The first tear escaped.

I turned to face my best friend, "I told you it wasn't real."

Back to Dmitri I whispered, all laughter gone, "What you feel isn't real," my voice was stronger. "It's not me. It was never me. God I am such a fool! It's what I am. You never had a choice!" I was done. This was all just a lie. It was time to leave. I walked backwards, staring at the people I grew to care for. Or was that just a lie as well.

Dmitri stepped toward me with his hand stretched out dangerously close to my face, I screamed, "Don't touch me!" I turned and raced back to my car. I yelled, "Just all of you leave me alone! Leave me alone!"

Speeding out of the driveway, I raced down the road franticly wiping away the tears streaming down my face. A heartbreaking, agonizing howl had me cry even harder. Out of the corner of my sight I spotted a wolf racing the same direction at the edge of the wooded area. I had to get away, stepping on the gas, driving dangerously fast I flew down the road. Within a few moments the wolf gave up. It wasn't till a few minutes later that I allowed myself to slow down to a safer speed but still over speed limit.

I wasn't sure how long I drove around before I found myself in front of Furball's. My tears dried up, nose no longer stuffed I parked my car and headed towards the bar. I hoped a cold beer, the loudness of the band and a friendly face would put me at ease for a while.

Walking over the threshold memories of Jack's conversation came flooding back. The first time I walked in here and what I had felt, the first time Nickoli and Matt shook my hand. Memories drifting all background noise away, eyes cast down, I absently walked forward.

Not paying attention to where I was going I slammed into what felt like a wall, but was actually a chest. I lifted my head slightly to apologize. "Sorry," I mumbled, not noticing whom I just banged into.

Large hands land on my shoulders stopping me from moving away. "Sam? What happened to you?" Matt's concern hit me hard and so did the realization what he may be.

My eyes widened, panic and fear flooded my body, and I started desperately to look for a way out. Trying to step back, banging into someone else that in return pushed me closer to Matt. My body tensed up, ready to let out a scream that was building up in my tight throat. Matt looked at me with shock and confusion from my reaction, putting his arm around my waist he pushed us to the back corner. Between not wanting to make a scene I allowed him to take over. He must have felt me tense up getting ready to run, fear drove me. He pulled me in closer and quickened his pace.