A Stupid Crush-Pipabeth

Chapter 15

It's been a month since the incident.

It all happened so fast, I'm not sure where the time went.

Annabeth, Reyna, Hazel and I never had our sleepovers.

Hazel and I haven't spoken to either of them since that fatal night at the park.

I miss Annabeth.

Her blonde, curly hair. The way she smiles. Her laugh. Gods I miss everything about her!

But alas I have yet to hear from her.

I see her around school in the halls, and there's always immediate tension the moment our eyes land on each other.

We sit there staring at each other every single time. In the middle of all the bustling kids on their way to class.

At first, we sit there emotionless. I don't think about anything as I stare at her, and she almost looks completely dead inside.

But then, she starts to look sad. I can see it in her eyes. A sadness that is so strong I start to tear up.

I turn away and before I leave, I sneak one last glance at her. She sighs and quickly leaves.

This happens almost everyday. It's complete and utter torture.

To see the person you were so in love with only weeks before look at you like you're a complete stranger.

To feel torn between the love of one and another.

I love Hazel but I love Annabeth.

I can't think straight, it's hard to pay attention.

Being around Hazel only makes it worse.

I thought I loved Annabeth, but apparently I loved Hazel. I thought I loved Hazel but now I love Annabeth.

I just want to shut off my heart! Run away!

But I can't...

My grades in school drop because instead of doing my homework I sit around and think of a solution for this never ending hell I'm living.

I get only a couple of minutes of sleep before waking up in a cold sweat from nightmares.

Nightmares about Annabeth and Hazel.

I tell Hazel I've been eating, when really I haven't.

How long has it been?

Hazel and I were laying in my bed one night. She had fallen asleep hours before me, but I couldn't sleep at all.

It's around 2:30 in the morning.

I stare into the abyss of darkness in front of me.

I think I started to hallucinate from not eating or sleeping, because I started to hear voices.

You screwed everything up.

If you had just gone and eaten lunch with Annabeth and Percy, none of this would have happened!

You wouldn't have gotten hurt, both physically and emotionally!

Look at how useless you are. Broken arm, broken heart, broken body. Useless.

Annabeth stopped loving you and Hazel probably has too!

That's not true. I mentally said.

How would you know Piper? How would you EVER know?

You're right. The voice was right.

No one loved me, and I was useless.

I sat up and leaned over to kiss Hazel on the cheek. "It's okay if you never loved me. I understand. Nonetheless I love you Hazel." I whispered.

I then pulled on some shoes and walked out of my bedroom, then out of the house entirely.

As I walked down the street, one word stuck in my head.

Useless