the deal ~ h.s. (au)

33. Something

here's the new chapter, sorry again for the late update, i don't have much time bc of school, but new chapter is coming in two days and that is for sure :)

enjoy

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After I feel Harry's touch get rougher, which I don't seem to mind very much, finding myself completely enjoying the roughness and passion this moment is filled with. The lust we both shared with one another is something I don't think I was ready for, along with the feeling of his lips on mine, his tongue mingling with mine as his soft, but still rough hands, just like his touch, stay pressed firmly on my skin. I can feel myself slowly drowning in his touch, the sweet and harsh caress of his skin, both physically and emotionally; and I hate this feeling so much because I can't control it, no matter how hard I try to.

Surprisingly, I slowly come to my senses and I pull away from Harry, right before I stand up clumsily in front of him. His confused face expression should satisfy me as much as it does, and I that's another thing that bothers me; I enjoy surprising him, catching him out of guard and just proving it to him that whatever he has in that little pretty head of his about me, is one hundred percent wrong. even though it was correct numerous times. Once again, I'm left surprised, since I have no self-control over myself when I'm with him and am completely unreliable to myself, when my hand collides with his cheek causing a loud bang  to echo through the room.

I don't like slapping people, and this is the second time I've ever slapped someone, besides my cousin when I was 8 years old. This wasn't a slow and gentle, or even weak slap. It was quite strong and I immediately regret it when I notice a red stain spreading across the lovely skin of his cheek. Harry closes his eyes for a second, clenching his jaw as he does so, with his face turned away from me. I hesitate from asking him if he's alright and grabbing a pack of frozen peas to put on his cheek.

"What the fuck was that for, White?" he asks, his voice sounding incredibly calm, which shocks me since I was expecting a much stronger and angrier reaction from him. This calm and self-collected state isn't something I'm used to seeing when it comes to Harry.

I decide to play rough and be a little arrogant, which might be a bit hard to put into action and make him believe I'm actually all that since just a minute ago I was sitting on top of him, licking his entire face, "That was for saying such awful things about my best friend, calling me a non-woman and being an arrogant and egoistic and rude and awful prick," I state, my voice getting higher and higher with every word I say, until I'm almost screaming at him and spitting at his face.

"Oh, yeah," he says dumbly, making my blood boil in every vein I have in my body, as I prepare to scream and spit at him more, "I'm sorry," he says, loud and proud, still with that hint of arrogance in his voice, but I ignore that as I just stare at him, realising this is the first time he's ever said he was sorry about something. I haven't heard him say that sincerely ever before and a part of me thought he was just too proud to say such words and I was convinced he had never said them before and never will.

"What?" I mutter under my breath, forgetting every insult I was about to throw at his face as I stare at him, still absorbing this moment with every piece of me.

"I am sorry. I was wrong, I shouldn't have said those things about your friend, without even knowing her. Even though everybody calls her like that, but I apologise for being like everybody else. And I'm sorry for saying you don't look like a woman, because you do. Otherwise I wouldn't be wasting my time with you" he pauses, as he notices I'm not blinking and I clear my throat just not to look like a complete idiot, "I'm serious and honest, White. I don't usually apologise, but I was way out of line with what I've said to you. But, about me being arrogant and all that, I can't change that because that's who I am and it is a fact it drives women crazy, you must admit," he adds, ruining the whole speech a little, but once again, I decide to ignore it.