memories to live

a little hint

I switched on to music mode on my phone, Kowshik fall asleep. Again, I lost into the past.

Its early November, Mridul isn't texting from past four days. So, it made me think that he had liked me somewhat, on the other hand it also made me think that he felt bad about me like "may she felt that I'm trying to flirt with her". I didn't want to message him because of my feelings on him.

On the other hand, my relationship with my present boyfriend is coming to extinct. He was not giving any time for me and, I felt some negligence from his side about our relationship. Whatever the situation is, relationships need their own spaces and time.

I texted to Sushant to know more about Mridul. He was not online later he replied that Mridul had returned to his home again and he don't know the exact reason this time. Somewhere at the corner of my mind I was quite worried. So, this time I messaged him.

Me: hey, are you alive? Or it seems you had forgotten me?

Mridul was not online that time, so I felt some more tensed. But that day I really waited for reply, while having dinner also I was staring at my phone.

I used to sleep early because I feel tired due to traveling. That night was not different.

The next morning I woke early. The first thing I did was checking my phone. It made me smile, yes, he had replied me and he is online too.

Mridul: want me to die soon?

Me: good morning. Of course not, but you were disappeared na so.

Mridul: what's the matter? Is everything okay in your relationship?

Me: it seems well, but not sure. Why you gone home again?

Mridul: should I require to say the truth?

Me: I feel so.

Mridul: then let me lie- "just to meet my gf".

The messaged made me quite sad, but I believed that it's a lie.

Mridul: are you there?

Me: say seriously?

Mridul: some health issues, don't bother I will be back soon.

Me: why should I bother? Anyway, I'm not your gf.

Mridul: don't say you have not bothered? It's already late for you and you are still texting me. Ok bye see you later.

Me: okay bye and by the way today I don't have morning session.

I lied to him, and he is right I'm getting late for college.

I'm happy because he has feelings for me, maybe the feelings are much greater than a friend. But somewhere my present relationship suppressing my feelings. I wish I would met him earlier.