memories to live

A SILENCE

I stood there with tears in my eyes, its really to difficult to accept. I took the decision to go back to home, before I move I just glanced at my phone. I saw 1 missed call from an unknown number before I make a call to that number I saw his number on the screen. First, I want to reject the call but my heart didn’t allow me to that, at last I received it.
Mridul: where are you? I’m waiting near the entrance of the stand?
I didn’t respond him. The thoughts in my head made me numb. I still feel that these are not going to happen. He kept on talking for few seconds but I choose to be silent.
Mridul: Are you there or went back?
Before I could speak I saw a hand out of an auto waving at me, yeah its him. Before he sees me, I rubbed off my tears. The auto came near me and he stepped out of it.

He looks too tired, he has such an innocence face for which any body can fall. I can see guilt in his eyes for being late, he was sweating. I gave him my napkin to rub off his sweat, he accepted it with a smile.
Mridul: I’m sorry.
He is too cute and that too in this stage he looks sexy. His voice is so soft and too melodies. I fell for him again. He asked me to get into an auto. We left for a hotel.
It’s not too far, a journey of 5mins. He sat with a comfortable distance, I was still angry with him he didn’t made a try to convince me. He just moved a step towards me, our shoulders were in contact. I can feel the hotness of his body, I was melting internally. I love this moment, I wish his arms around me.

Before I could finish my dreamy things the we reached the hotel. He got down and gave me his hand to come out. Before I accept he took it back because I took a while to make the move. It made me him to feel that I’m still angry on him. He asked me to stand there. He went inside the hotel to book room, the city has huge rush that day. He came back within two minutes, I smiled at him thinking that he got the room. But it didn’t happen, he asked a sorry again. I smiled and replied its okay. He held my hand, it made me comfortable. I’m happy because he has accepted me. it made me to be comfortable.
Mridul: shall we move?
Me: (puzzled) to?
Mridul: don’t think that I got room. Should walk to next hotel.
Me: hmm okay.
He held my hand and we left for next hotel which is around 200m away. We were walking near edge of road. On the way he reasoned me that he was late because he missed the train. I felt guilt for being angry with him. Suddenly he pulled me towards him with a heavy force. I just hit my head to his lips and I kissed his neck. This happened in a fraction of seconds, I was in shock why he did this. This happened because we were busy in our conversation such that we didn’t even cared about the person who was coming in a bike and making horn for us to give his way. He had hit me if Mridul hadn’t done this. Whatever happened was not bad, we had our first kisses in public. We both started to laugh when we realized this. We reached the second hotel but couldn’t get a room.
Mridul: can we go for a restaurant? I’m too hungry.
Me: lets walk in.
Mridul ordered two masal dosas thinking that I will have one. Then he asked me for which I said a no. then he ordered a badam milk. We sat there waiting for our orders to be ready.

He took my phone and started to read our conversation and I took his phone and started to search for his pics. I could find most of the pics with his cousins and parents. In every pic he looks too cute. He is too cute such  a level that no baby will not hesitate to be with him. Any girl can fall for his innocence, he is really adorable. I lost in his phone with thoughts about him. He kept on gazing me till the order came. He offered me the first bite, I refused to eat since the hotel was full of people. After that he started to have it. first few bites he ate in hurry like someone will take it from him. After that I started to laugh looking at his mess, he even forgot to wash his face. He is such a kid. I again fell for him. I had half of my badam milk and kept there. Without any hesitation he drank it. Then we walked to bus stop, still he is holding my hand.

We reached the stop. We had many things in our mind to say but we didn’t have the time to share. We exchanged most of our feelings through our eyes. May be this time we didn’t had the chance to be together for a long time but we are together for always. I left for my home with a hope of meeting again. While bidding a bye also he held my hand in his. When I turned to leave, again he pulled me closer to him, but this time there were no kisses. We just an eye contact for few seconds, which made me blush. Then we left.

It’s the best day of my life. I had my first and best moments with him. I’m thankful to him for being in my life. On the way while coming back I dreamt of being with him for rest of my life. Nothing happened according to our plan but we made some memories. The way he held my hand made me love him more. When your love holds your hand in public it doesn’t mean they don’t want to lose you but it means they are saying to the world that we will be together forever. I’m proud of being in love with him. I don’t want to lose him at any cost of my life. Though we didn’t talk much but our silence has it's way.