As the days passed we became much closer. Its end of November, my exams are nearer. On the other way his surgery is giving tension. I don’t know why I can’t avoid him but I’m sure he is the one for me. But I don’t have the guts to say this to him, the more I tried to suppress my feelings the more I used to fail. I just want him beside me for my life long.
That evening as usual we start to text.
Mridul: hey, can I ask you something?
Me: yes of course, and don’t ask like this again.
Mridul: is everything okay in your relationship?
Me: somewhat, he is busy with his exams. I don’t know why he is avoiding me.
Mridul: ask him directly, the problem solved.
Me: in relationship everything need not to be asked, somethings are required to said by themselves.
Mridul: does he proposed you?
Me: it’s a long story. You will get bored.
Mridul : it’s nothing like that, let me hear it.
Me: My boyfriend is from Bijapur, we connected through Facebook. Then we became closer, I used to say everything to him. There is nothing called personal to me, I liked him a lot. He had helped me to come over my childhood dilemma. He made me to live again. I had a clue that he liked me and I always used to ask him that does he likes me or not. He used to say that he will answer me some other time. His family is too good. Then one day I proposed him, and he accepted it. Then the relationship has its start. But from past month he is avoiding me, I don’t know what to do further as well the reason is still not known.
Mridul: do you really love him?
Suddenly something got me stuck, what if Mridul hates because of my past. So here goes I lie.
Me: I don’t know why are you asking about him. But the thing is that neither I proposed him nor he, and we are not in relationship. Other than these things everything is true.
(I don’t know why I lied him, actually whatever I said him through that message is true but still I can’t accept it)
Mridul: do you think he loves you? Will you accept if he proposes?
Me: I feel that in his words, I guess I will accept. It doesn’t matter like I should love him. I’m not a beauty, for me he is good.
Mridul: can I say a thing to you?
Me: don’t ask permission to say your feelings, you are free to express them.
Mridul: I have crush on you, and it’s not from now. From day one I like you.
Me: I guess you don’t like me now, and moreover it’s just infatuation.
Mridul: what will you react if I say that I may still like you and I just want to be with you for rest of my life?
I’m stunned by his last message, it’s really mesmerizing. Did he really mean it? Or he is playing with me? If so can I accept him by breaking my present relationship? Can he accept my past? Do I really deserve his love?
Lots of thoughts floating in my mind, and still I’m not sure about the truthiness of that message.
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memories to live
General FictionA girl with a bitter past falls in love with a cool guy. They take their love granted, but the destiny has its own role to play.
