memories to live

A PAST MARRIAGE

When you are in love the whole seems to be happy, crazy and what not, too love full. I’m happy because he has accepted me completely. We used to talk for hours. Since he stayed in home it’s quite difficult for us to talk, so we had fixed a time to talk. Usually on evenings after 5 he used to go for playing cricket and by that time my classes also over, so on that time we used to call. we used to so many random things. we always used to miss each other. He is around 600km away from me but still I can feel his presence beside me. He made believe in myself, gave me the courage to live and moreover he is with me for all my good and bad. 

One evening while talking he asked a question which made me dumbstruck.
Mridul: what will you do if I say I’m already married?
Me: yeah, I know it. You are already married to me, right?
Mridul: a yes for that. But I have something more to say.

I’m a married man, I was married to one of my cousin at the age which is too young to recognize the world. By the time I was five, they made me a groom. Trust me, I had no feelings for her. But she had liked me a lot. She always used to call me as husband but I never took it seriously.

Me: I hope you are joking, it can’t be happened. Who is she? Where is she? Do you like her?

Thousands of thoughts are floating in my head. I don’t want to lose him. He is my hope, my life and everything. No, he can’t go away from me, and we have not even met yet. No, this can’t happen so soon.

Mridul: her name is Smitha, she is my uncle’s daughter. Don’t think that you will lose me because I’m always yours. No one can take me away from you. I’m with you always. I promise that I will never gonna  leave you. The sad thing is that she died in an accident three years before. Love you.

Me: I feel sorry for her. I don’t know what you feel if I say I’m happy because she is no more. But trust me I really love you. I don’t want to lose you at any cost of my life. You are mine.
Mridul: I know you love me. See you later, mom is calling I have to go back. See you soon.
Me: love you too. Missing you a lot. I’ll be waiting for you.

We ended up the call. I don’t know whether his mom called him or not but I guess he caught my thought. I need time to accept his story. I know his family lost a great person, but a marriage at that age doesn’t matter.
Me: do you believe in marriages?
Mridul: look I love you. I know you need some more time to accept me. Whatever happened is happened whether in your case or my case. Just leave it. Really, I don’t believe in marriages, but I do want to know marry you for the sake of my parents and your parents. Anyhow marriages are just like license. You need just to show it to others but love is like confidence, having a license without confidence is same as marriages without love. But don’t worry I will marry you.

After reading this I felt happy. The really me is really happy. What he said is right. I couldn’t say much but all I can feel now is his love.
Me: love you so much.

He and me both have past which has to be accepted by both of us. We love each other. We know what we need. We need time to accept each other. Don’t be a prisoner of past but it doesn’t mean forget the lessons which you learn from it. The best teacher of life is experience, accept life as it come it. Expect less, love more. Time will give solution for everything. Just have the courage to accept life. I feel sorry for Smitha, I can feel the pain a person loss. But no one is permanent. Just enjoy every moment like you will be not there tomorrow. And have the courage to face the problems together when you’re in love. For that moment you may feel it as self-respect but after sometime you will regret for that. Learn to be sorry even though its not your mistake, it will have its own reward called as happiness.