memories to live

Valentine's Day

We are equally excited about our first valentine’s day. We planned to write a letter for each other. Since its our first valentine’s day, its so special to us. As usual we were chatting.

Me: so, what’s plan for tomorrow? With whom you are going out?
Mridul: I have around 5 invitations, you select one, I’ll go with her.
Me: so sweet, send me those, I’ll select the best.
Mridul: idiot, you are best. You are my first, best and last love. Will you text me throughout night?
Me: oh, love you so much. Promise me that you will never going to leave me?
Mridul: love you too. I think still you have not trust me?
Me: hey nothing like that. I trusted more than myself, just a random thought. I know it’s stupid to ask such things, but still I do ask because I don’t want to lose you. Sorry for this.
Mridul: it’s okay, I love you. Don’t worry, no one can take me from you.
Me: love you, please forgive me for everything, my past, my stupidity. I’m so crazy about you,
Please don’t leave me.
Mridul: I love you too Janu. There is something more you should know, I don’t know how you will take it.
Me: say it first.
Mridul: sorry for saying it now. Tomorrow I’m going to have my surgery, may be for a month I need to take rest. I’ll be in comma for a week or more, I can’t contact you. So, I’ll text you whole night, I’m going to miss you.
Me: are you sure?
Mridul: yep, sorry for this.
Me: don’t be sorry, its okay. Be strong, everything will be okay. I miss you too.

I’m not strong enough to accept thing what he had just said but I need to stay strong. I don’t want him to know that I’m weak, that too at this point. The whole night we texted, I asked so many random questions but not stupid again. It’s around 2am when we slept.
The next morning, I dropped few messages to him and left for college. All the way I waited for his reply, I didn’t call him because I want him to take rest.
Around 2 he called me, he called from a coin both since his phone was hanging. We talked for few minutes, he was crying. I couldn’t talk properly but all what we said is we miss each other.

He left for Hyderabad in evening, for the first time in our love life we are staying without contacting each other. It’s more than hell, I want to be with him now but the things are not right for it. for the first in my life I prayed even though I never believed.

its hard to live life without him, I don’t know what happening with him. All I need now is him, I miss every small thigs about him. I have read our conversations again and again, I fell to sleep while listening to his voice notes. Its too difficult to live without knowing the things about him.

In the evening, I was simply scrolling on Facebook. For a surprise I got message from his account, I couldn’t believe. But for my bad luck its not him, it’s his sister. He asked her to update me the things about me.

She: the surgery is completed, he is out of danger now. He asked me to update the things about him, you are lucky to have him.
Me: that’s great to know, thanks for the help. Yep I’m lucky to have him, I’m thankful to have him in my life.
She: I know you are waiting for him, if possible I’ll help him to call you as soon as he come to consciousness.

I kept on waiting for his messages.