memories to live

Acceptance

Mridul is still online and waiting for my reply. I want to say yes but still I don’t know whether he is really loving me or not. What happens if he is not different from those weird vampires. I called to Shrey, by the way Shrey is my boyfriend. Again, he didn’t receive. I thought maybe he is busy while I doing this, a message from Mridul popped on the screen.

Mridul: are you there?

Me: hmm. May be my answer will be a yes, which girl doesn’t want a bf like you. I sware you are really so cute.

Mridul: now can I remove the word "may" from both my question and your answer?

Me: are you sure?
Then there comes an awaiting proposal, the best gift of my life.

Mridul: I’m not joking, I’m really in love with you. If you stay with me I’m ready to face the whole world. I want to spend rest of my life with you, you are my never boring companion. I don’t know how to impress you. You are the first girl in my life who is this much close, I can see my mother love and affection in you. Will you be mine forever?

I had tears in my eyes, I want to say a yes but I can’t. I again called to Shrey this time he received it but didn’t allow me to talk and ended the call by saying he will call me later on.

Me(to Shrey): do you really love me? If so then say it.
Shrey: why are asking it now? I will say you when time comes.
Me: do hell with your time, this is the last time I’m asking you. Answer me or else I will take it as no.
Shrey: I’m bit busy, see you later.

I had heard this enough time, I guess now it’s time to move on. I replied to Mridul.

Me (to Mridul): I really like you. I guess I’m not the one for you. Do think for few more days and then say your decision.

Mridul: if you ask the same question after 5 or 500 years my answer will be same. Yes, I really love you. I hope you will not disappoint me. Waiting for your decision, please say yes.
Me: I had a bitter past, I’m not go
od as you think. Don’t you care for my past?
Mridul: f**k the past, it is nothing to do with the present or future. And I don’t care for your past whatever it may. If you are comfortable then share with me or else no need.

Me: I need time to think, see you later.
Mridul: I will be waiting for you.

The thing of life is that the right thing never happens at the right time as we feel, but time has its own plans. Be the acceptor of life. I wish Mridul could have come a bit earlier. I really love him but I cant say this to him. He is the best thing that ever happened to me. He understands me very well, he easily catches my thoughts. I don’t deserve him but he is my need, my addiction. I feel relief when I talk to him, he haunts me in my dreams. I don’t want to miss him, what happens if he comes to know about my relationship? Will he accept me? I’m confused.
Me: I want to say yes to you but on two condition. One- promise me that you won’t ask about my past. Two- promise me that you wont leave me.

Mridul: does it mean a yes?
Me: if you accept my conditions then it’s a yes.
Mridul: can I call you now?
Me: hmm..
Then he called me, I can feel his happiness. I can feel his love, but does it exist for life long?