memories to live

THE MEET

Though mine exams are going on I didn’t avoid him. He gives me the space which I require, he knows about my possessiveness but he never complained about it. After all I couldn’t myself believe that it's me. I had tremendous changes in my lifestyle, I used we wear a smile on my face, I felt life is easy and beautiful. But I feel bad about the distance, it really sucks. Whenever we see couples we imagine ourselves. At last he made the decision to come over here and meet me.

We planned to roam around the city and stay in a hotel for few hours. After that he had to leave, maybe it’s just a day for many people around us but for it’s a day great day of our lives. We dreamed of being together, those touches which creates vibes in our souls, that feeling of being together is something new and fancy for both of us. Though we live miles apart our souls stick to love of each other. At last we are going to meet tomorrow.

Mridul: so, what can I get for being there?
Me: what you want?
Mridul: don’t act like you don’t know.
Me: let’s see.
Mridul: never say maybe, let’s see like those, they are meaningless.

It’s a common wish of every teen to have those moments. we had a fear inside us, but we never shared it. on that evening he called me and said he can’t come. I’m at about cry but I didn’t say anything and just said I’m okay with it. but after sometime he asked me to be there within 8:30 am, there was no limit for my happiness. I made my preparation for our first meet. Around 7pm he left his place, he was coming over a bus. It’s a journey overnight but I’m worried because of his health, he has to undergone a surgery in upcoming month so I don’t want him to take risk at this time. He couldn’t text me continuously because of network problems, whenever he gets a chance he used to update me about his location. I slept making sure about he is okay. Though I slept very late I didn’t get sleep. I fell sleep around 3 in the morning. 

THE DAY

I woke up early and prepared myself. I thought of wearing modern dress but I preferred chudi since its our first meet. I left for there around 7 and it’s a journey of 90mins, he stated that he left Bangalore, by the time I reach he will be freshen up. We didn’t make any contacts almost 1 hour, but after that when I called he said he will be late and he struck in traffic and he may miss his train. I asked him to reach asap. I reached the city quite early since it’s a highway. I called him again but he said he need another hour to reach there. I sat in the bus stop and started to watch a movie.

After an hour I dialed to him but this time he didn’t received, I thought he may be in some tension. After few minutes I dialed again but this time also he didn’t respond. I dialed again but got no response. I dropped few messages asking him to reply and call me as soon as possible. Its almost 30mins but he neither replied nor called. I called him again few more times but didn’t get any response. I dropped him messages asking where is he or will him come or not. At 10 I got call from another number I received it. it was him, he said he will be there within 10 min. I came out of bus stop and stood near auto stop. I stood there gazing at every auto thinking that its him. I couldn’t find him in any of those. Its almost 30min but he didn’t come. I shattered there. I called him again but no response. I was in a confusion whether he will come or not but after few attempts of calling to his number I felt that its all a drama. I felt his love was fake. Thousands of questions were floating in my head.is it all happened? Does the love is real? Does he play with me?

I couldn’t find answer for any of my questions. I breakdown there itself, I didn’t have the courage to face the people over there. Within no time tears started to flow, I just want to hit myself for one of those moving vehicles. I couldn’t handle myself. The only thing in my mind at that time was what was my mistake? Why he didn’t come now? Or what happened with him?