memories to live

MOVE ON

it’s a week from the bad day. Now I know the truth, maybe I deserve this, maybe he had dreamt of the girl different kind like innocent or modern or without past. It’s okay I can accept I’m not the girl his kind of, we dreamt of being together but it doesn’t mean it will happen. It took me a month to be strong to accept myself. I had done the mistakes in my past, I had tortured him for his love. maybe my stupid questions made him to stop loving me. he has his own priorities, I can’t change them. But whatever he done for me is the best thing I had received. He said the truth which I need to accept.

When I look the life in his point of view, I feeling everything right. Even I feel to hate the people who ask me to stay away from family, even I want my boy to love only me just like he did. For the first time when he asked to forget everything about Rahul or Shrey I’d no. He need to take care of his family, he can’t hurt them again like his brother, he has his own responsibilities. Even I can’t stay with people who asks for complete attention just like I did. I feel happy for him for being true. Whatever the things he did when he was with me are really true.

Now I can’t say that I don’t believe in love but I say I don’t love anyone or hate anyone. I struggled a lot to do this but I succeed somewhat, I start to accept the life as it comes. My dreams didn’t change after this, I still have the dream of traveling, the world tour is still in the top of my to do list. I accept everything, I’m much stronger than I was. I thank for him making me so strong. When someone asks me will you accept if he comes back, I just smile at them and replies that I don’t know answer for it but I can’t hate him ever and never. Now I’m preparing for my MS, I look life in a positive way. The respect for him is still same, and it doesn’t mean you have to hate the person if they hurt you. There is nothing wrong or right its all our perception. When I look back, I smile at those memories and I still live with them.

I just say I’m a bad hater of you, some people think I hate them badly but there is another way of understanding it i.e. bad at hating mean weak at hating- seems loving. As I said its all your perception. Life is one-time offence and too short to regret. Just move on with the time, if you stick you fall behind that’s it. Bother for the things which are really deserves it, accept the life. Just move on because you live only once, there is a lot to experience.

Mine
Riya