102 (A Matt Healy Fanfic)

Chapter 4

// I feel like I'm just treading water, is it the same for you //

Matty was already becoming hard to resist. I couldn't quite put my thumb on it, but there was something enticing about him; almost addictive. Now that we were at eight hours through this flight, I was too fascinated by him. The way he talked even, like every word had been thought out precisely but in reality was effortless. If only I could feel this way and have this growing fascination towards Ross. He was sitting beside my best friend Katrina, and what..the fuck....they were holding hands.

I got up to march over and demand an explanation, but Matty noticed before I could, and grabbed my hand. "Two can play at that game." He said with a smirk. Literally all we were doing was holding hands, yet it felt magnetic, so powerful. I wasn't sure how this whole thing made me feel, but before I could allow my mind to wander any longer, I realized Matty had drifted off to sleep, whilst holding my hand.

He looked so innocent when he slept, like a kitten or something. Did I really just compare a gorgeous boy to an animal...? Apparently so. My eyes wandered back to Ross and Katrina, who had stopped holding hands, Katrina was asleep and there was an empty seat beside Ross so I decided to wander over and figure out what was going on.

"Why exactly were you holding hands with my best friend?" I said as I slouched in to the seat.

"I was crying, so she was comforting me, if you really must know." Well, that was awkward. I crossed my fingers and hoped he hadn't seen Matty and I holding hands. Ross was no longer looking at me so I felt like it was my signal to leave. As I went to sit down in my seat next to Matty, a woman knocked into my side and startled me. "Watch where you're going next time." I muttered. This whole plane ride had turned me grumpy apparently.

"Watch who you're talking to next time." The lady retorted. Turns out this "lady" was actually an airplane stewardess, and a beautiful one at that.

"Matty baby would you like anything to drink? We have some of your favorite red wine in the back if you'd like me to get it." she said. How did they know each other? This was getting wierd.

"Janelle, love, I think I'm alright this time. There's only so many times I can get piss drunk and do things I regret." he replied.

"If you change your mind, there's a new lavatory that shouldn't be occupied and has enough room for two." she said as she walked back down the aisle, swaying her hips from side to side. Disgusting. I guess her and Matty had slept together before, I wish i could say I was suprised. Who am I kidding? I felt more envy than any other emotion in that moment.

"How many girls do you usually sleep with in washrooms Matthew?"

"She was my first and last one, give me a break Tris. We only did it a couple times, I know what a bed is. Don't act so disgusted either, we all know you and ex-boyfriend over there have done more than just hold hands." he stated. The truth was I had been putting off having sex with Ross at all every since our three year anniversary, we still had never done it, I was a virgin. Now feeling a hint of embarassment for my inexperience compared to Matty, my cheeks heated up.

"You're you're...a vir---I I can't believe it." Matty exclaimed. His jaw was nearly on the floor.

"Why are you so suprised, I'm sure I can't be the first virgin you've ever met."

"It's just, you're so beautiful, I just I guess I'm not used to meeting beautiful girls that aren't throwing themselves at me for that reason, almost that reason alone. So when you didn't even hit on me I thought you must've been satisfied enough with Ross." There goes any discussion boundaries for me and this boy.