The Halfway Group (book 1)

Chapter 23: Heartache and Headache

Warning:  This is a triggering chapter please be aware of things and themes you shouldn't try in real life. Depression is a real thing and it's not something to be glorifying.

Jimmy's POV:

Fuck my life dude, I hate this shit.  I feel so worthless and pathetic.  I hate myself for not being here enough or on time. 

Bloods dripping down my arm as I'm getting in the shower, Rachel and Haley went to the store with mom and I stayed to clean up after brunch.  Mom's really sick and really needs help.  "Why am I such a failure?  My dad hates me and I wasn't there for my own mother when she needed me the most."  I cut deeper and deeper until I can see my muscle.

Stupid, fuck up asshole.  All you care about is yourself I hate myself i should just end it all. 

As I sit in the shower with my razor to my throat I start crying... I'm such a horrible horrible son, I'm a horrible brother and an even worse boyfriend.  Rachel is gonna leave me for this, Haley is gonna hate me for this and mom... it's gonna shatter her heart more than anyone can mend.  This may be my last day here on this earth, I cannot continue to be a fuck up.

Haley's POV:

"Mom he's gonna love it.  He loves sushi."  Mom bought Jimmy a sushi guide on how to make and prepare sushi and found a list of stores in Arcadia Bay. 

"Yeah Natalie he is gonna love it!"  Rachel smiles as she's walking next to mom's motor cart.  It pains me seeing her like this.

"Haley are you sure you don't want anything? Perhaps a new dress?  Some shoes?"  Mom asks with the sweetest smile.  It just goes to show how the sweetest and nicest people have the worst luck.

"No thanks mom, I really appreciate it though."  I really don't want anything just spending time with mom is nice enough.  She bought Rachel some flats and a dress because I guess Jimmy is gonna take mom and her out to dinner tonight.  Which will leave me alone to watch some Game of thrones.  I can also call Chloe... "Oh My God!!! I forgot to text Chloe saying we got here okay!! She's gonna kill me."  Rachel and mom chuckle. 

"Haley, Jimmy texted her this morning because she was blowing up his phone. Saying he better not have wrecked and got us killed or she was gonna come after him."

"That doesn't mean im.off the hook."  I turn my phone on for the first time since I woke up and it's blown up by Chloe saying how much she misses me, she even sent me some pictures of her and Max chilling in Jimmys living room playing some old school crash bandicoot.

H: Hey babe, sorry it took so long to respond I completely spaced letting you know I got here okay.

C: You are lucky you are so cute Haley, Jimmy let me know this morning so you are off the hook this time.  I love you and miss you already.

H: We should be back within the next couple days.

C: I'll be waiting.
She sends a cute winky face along with a picture of her beautiful self.

"So girls are we ready to head back home?"  Mom and Rachel head up to the check out. 

"Yeah we are ready!"  I walk ahead and start putting the items on the belt to be checked out. We walk out of the store to mom's car and load the trunk up.  Rachel and mom get in as I push the cart to the cart return.  As we pull in the drive way I have a very uneasy feeling.  "Rachel run inside and check on Jimmy, I have a bad feeling." Our sibling telepathy is acting up. 

"Okay, I'll be right back. I feel it too."  She gets out and runs inside.  "Mom I'll be right back I promise." I run inside and hear Rachel Bawling.  I head to where I hear her and Jimmys covered in blood, with an empty pill bottle next to him..... no god no. 

"Haley call 911 now!!! Fucking call it now!"  She pulls out her phone and calls. 

"Hello 911 what's your emergency?"

"My boyfriend has cut his arm deeply and took a bottle of pills I just found him.  Please send someone immediately." 

"Okay ma'am what's the address and I'll have an ambulance sent out immediately" 

She verifies and hangs up.  Within minutes paramedics are attempting to bring him back.

"He's lost a lot of blood already, we need to do an immediate transfusion and pump." The paramedics pull out a machine and start getting him pumped.  They then get him on a gurney and immediately carry him to the.ambulance.

"Mom!!! Jimmy OD'd and they sre trying to bring him back!!."  Rachel runs to thr ambulance and gets in the back as they speed off with thr sirens on.

"Oh dear, I can't lose my son, please lord help my son." Mom slowly gets on her knees and prays.  I get on mine and pray too. I'm not religious but I cannot lose my brother.  The other half of my soul. 

Rachel texts me saying they have started the transfusion and that they have a pulse for now, but he's not out of the woods.

"Mom he's going to be fine." I lied.  "Rachel says he's going to be okay they started getting him fluids."  Mom looks at me, "Don't sugar coat things for me Haley, I may be very ill but I still know when my own daughter is keeping things from me. 

"I'm sorry mom, but I'm sure he will be fine."  I text Chloe and tell her what's happened.

C: He better pull through.  I'm gonna kill him for scaring us and doing that.

H: Not funny Chloe, he's in very serious condition.

C:  I know babe, want me to come up there? I'll bring Max. 

H:  No Chloe, please.  I love you and I got to go.

C: I love you too.... be safe babe, tell Jimmy I said hey and that Shadow isn't getting skinny. He's eating like a king.

H:  Thanks Chloe, tell Max I said hi too.

"Mom, im going to help you inside and I'll clean the bathroom, you don't need to see that."

"Okay honey, let's go." I help mom up and walk her to her bed.  "Thanks Honey, we will go see him soon." 

I put my hair into a pony tail and fill up the bucket with soapy water.  I need to get this cleaned begore it dries.... my heart is seriously breaking for Jimmy... my brother is in so much pain but I can't help him.

Jimmy, please be okay.  You are my brother and the other half of my soul.

I clean up the bathroom and make it as spotless as possible.  I've never seen so much blood. James Craig, why did you do this to yourself?