Chapter 13~All i have left

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Jai hasn't spoke a word to me since the day he heard the rumour, three days ago. When ever he see's me around i try and smile but he just carries on walking and looks away. This rumour has ruined my life. I have dark circles under my eyes where i haven't slept. I'm getting weaker from where i'm not eating and i'm lonely. I have no one my age who cares for me. The only people who support me are my parents but there even angry with me for all the fights,letters home and grades dropping.

I never leave my room anymore, It feels like i already forgot what the outdoors look like.

I haven't been to school for a few days. Theres no point. I can't learn without spiteful words being thrown at me. I destroy everyones day. No one wants me here.

Jai's been ignoring me like i did too him 3 years ago. I keep trying to contact him but he's blocked me on everything. I now feel what it was like for Jai. All i want is too explain that it is all fake.

I am not going to make this argument last for another 2 years. I need to sort this out. It cannot go back to the start again we need eachother.

Because of the issue Jai had with me the janoskians first video got cancelled. They can't film it alone. They need me.

I need to speak to one of the boys to try and make Jai listen to me. I need him with me. He's all i have left.

It's hard to even try anymore. I force myself too. The only thing i don't force myself is to try and talk to Jai because he makes me still want to live. With out him, I feel like i wanna die for what i did too him. I never want to see him hurt. Especially if it's something i have never done.

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