Muse

Chapter 13: Tunnel Vision Expanded: Selflessness P1

Hey guys! I am soooooo sorry that I took so long to update! First it was writers block and then school hit me like a brick to the point where I didn't even have time to read on Wattpad which for the people who know me is practically unheard of.

I did actually put a lot of thought into this chapter and have been working on it slowly for the past couple weeks. I hope you like it!

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Quick reminder: Devyn and Zach hung out in the Ice Arena Gym. Devyn's mom was extremely upset and they had a fight where she revealed that she didn't want Devyn going to her dream Arts school in California which set Devyn off, causing her to walk out on her mom and go to spend the night at Lauren's.

Enjoy!

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Here I lay, staring at the ceiling, wondering what on Earth happened last Saturday night. It's Monday now and I'm still drawing blank. With probably the 30th sigh, I sit up lazily and check my phone. 3:26. Schools almost over.

I had texted my mom Saturday night that I was spending the night at Lauren's and not to worry. I sent her another text last night, completely ignoring all her apologetic replies and voicemails, and told her I would stay with Lauren again and go with her to school today. Only a third of that is a lie.

So I did stay over at Lauren's last night, but even though I technically stayed home all day, I'm going to drive Lauren's car over for dance practice. No need to punish them because of my stupid life.

School ends at 4:15 so I get up and drag my feet over to Lauren's bathroom for a needed shower.

Lauren's parent's got a divorce over the summer and it pretty much destroyed her family. She's told me that even though they couldn't even look at each other without fighting before, it was still better than this because at least they were still together. She thinks that they we trying to make it work for her sake, but once the option was put on the table, it was like they couldn't make it official fast enough.

A lot of tears and heartache came from that, but the one thing that Lauren is slightly hesitant to complain about is how her parents are constantly spoiling her as an apology. And not like you always hear, the parents not actually caring and just showering their child in money. Lauren's parent's honestly feel bad and wish things were different if only for her benefit. They both pitched in to get her a car for her seventeenth birthday because neither of them will be around consistently enough to take her places. Plus, it's her senior year. Who wouldn't want a car?

I feel slightly bad about her taking the bus because she had to wake up an hour earlier and skip breakfast (literally just so she could spend another 20 minutes in bed after hitting snooze twice and then 15 more staring at her closet deep in thought - I don't even know) but then again, although I do have my license, my mother was never able to get me my own car, and it's been quite a while since I've tasted the freedom of being your own personal chauffeur.

I turn on the hot water and proceed to strip while thinking back to two nights before. I grimace as it leaves an unwanted negativity that always puts me in a mood.

As I sat patiently on the bus bench a free blocks from my house, I kept my eyes on the lamp post across the street, diligently ignoring the persistent buzz of my cell phone in my back pocket.

She really doesn't give up does she? I scoff and roll my eyes, a bitterness settling in as anger slowly won the battle against my hurt, and confusion.

I honestly couldn't have been more confused though. I mean seriously! All I did was sneak off with a friend for a couple hours! And yes, that sounds pretty bad, like punishment worthy bad, but saying I can't go to my dream college? The college that I've worked so hard to get a scholarship for and SUCCEEDED?! Where was the sense in that? I'm sorry, but I just can't see it.