If My Love Is Suicide (Nalu)

Chapter 21

Author's Note

Okay, I wasn't planning on doing an author's note but I just realized something... well it's more realizing that I have a question.

What happens when you where your 3D glasses upsidown in a movie theater? I remember doing this once but I can't remember what it looked like. This is really stupid... it's not likely that anyone would really know, but it's better to at least try right? XD

By the way did any of you see the new Black Panther movie? It was so good I legit cried at the end. (I'm a big fan of superhero's (more so marvel ( at least for the movies. ) ) I am so glad that Black Panther was on team Iron Man in the civil war movie. I don't know where it is going to lead in the new movie Avengers Infinity War but it's not like they are going to skip time.

I love Iron Man (I'm a die hard fan) so to see a new hero that I really like on that team is nice. I was also excited about the new Spiderman being on Iron Man's team too. War Machine too. To be honest I don't really think the person playing Black Widow is the right fit which is a shame.

I am also a huge fan of Star-Lord (Peter Quill) and Thor. They are both not on this planet during the Civil War movie, but will be coming together during the Avengers movie. Based off the ending to one of the trailers I assume that Thor will get there first. I just wonder if there will be a little bit of siding even if there not in a full on 'civil war.' I'm also pretty sure Dr. Strange (who I like a lot too) would be like super indifferent unless they were doing something he thought needed to be stoped. At least if that happens I also am for team Iron Man.

Anyways, I want Iron Man to have a good relationship with the two. (He already knows Thor better then most of the superhero's so that's a plus.) Look at me now I am rambling, I just got excited.

What I was going to ask is who are your favorite or top favorite superheroes? I am restricting it for me only to marvel and basing it off of the movies for now (even though I do read comics too) because otherwise it would get to complicated. I also tried to number them but I will regret it later.

1. Iron Man

2. Star-Lord

3. Thor

4. Wolverine

5. Dr. Strange and Spiderman

Alright that's it. Maybe if you want you guys do something like top 1, top 3, or top 5. I don't know if you're into superhero stuff... or if your still reading this.

Also, I am listening to your opinions on wether to to refer to Lucy as 'I' or 'Lucy' and am thankful for your quick replies. It seems for now (unless there is somehow a huge change in one week where I am still open to a opinions and everyone wants me to refer to Lucy as 'Lucy' instead) I will stick with referring to her as 'I'. I was worried because it's not as common in nalu fanfics to do first person, although there still are some fanfics. I just wanted to make sure it was what you guys wanted. Anyways, on with the chapter.

Lucy's P.O.V.

Jude came back...

The lose of hope and the added fear from my father's creepy smile didn't help me prepare for the pain when he kicked me. He dragged me to an old chair in the middle of the room, one that was literally nailed to the ground. He can be a little excessive.

I was unable to move because of the cufflinks. My father then gave me a creepy smile and went to his tool rack. 'I'm going to be fine,' I reassured myself. 'He won't kill me so I'll be fine.' The words but it was futile.

Cuts were slowly made across my skin. He then picked up the whip and slashed my stomach making rips across my school uniform.

He then licked his lips looking at my partially exposed stomach and breasts, or to be more accurate some of my bra. He decided to un-cuff me and throw me to the ground. Then he wiped me again, and again, and again.

My clothing was soon in shreds, yet still remained on me. Once he finally stopped, Jude grabbed my face, lifting it up to him. I didn't enjoy the look he gave me, making him seem so powerful... and disgusting.

He then started laughing. "Hope you felt that." Were his last words before throwing me against the wall. My father then walked up the stairs, satisfied with what he had done.

Time Skip

I woke up in the morning very sore. I felt like I couldn't move. At that moment I would do almost anything to lie on the dirty and cold stone floor coated with blood.

I ended up heading to the bathroom and took a shower. It stung like a bitch but what was I gunna do about it? I wrapped myself in bandages after discovering the cuts and welts he left on me.

I ended up needing to cover most of my arms. I then made sure to change into a long sleeved shirt/hoodie (depending on your preference sense I don't like deciding clothes). After, I brushed my hair and applied concealer.

I couldn't really hide the cut that was apparent on my cheek though.

Time Skip

I walked into school not exactly expecting something along the lines of a nice greeting, but I was unprepared for the harsh glares. If looks could kill, right? This time pure hatred was shown in there eyes.

Trying to ignore them, I quickly got to my locker doing my morning routine which consists of basically trading books and stuff from my locker and bag. I then felt a hand press on my shoulder surprising me.

I jumped and turn around to see Natsu's goofy grin... I stared at his hand on my shoulder for a lingering second. 'It definitely surprised me but... I didn't flinch or think about... you know.' I just ignored that thought before I getting into a mindset that would make me blush. (Btw not blush from embarrassment more like how it's because they're so close and then might even think of love or something.)

I refocused on Natsu's face that went straight from a smile to concern. He grazed my cheek with his finger carefully. "What happened Luce." Oh, I almost forgot the cut on my cheek.

"Oh I f-forgot. Believe it or not I fell on broken glass. Lucky it didn't get in my eye." Natsu seemed convinced to something that sounded so stupid. Good thing he's dense. "Alright, be careful next time for me okay?"

"for you w-what are you saying y-you idiot!" I said trying to hide my blush. Natsu then showed me his reassuring smile again before pulling me off to class