If My Love Is Suicide (Nalu)

Chapter 26

Author's Note

Hi again! I really wanted to apologize about that mishap with my computer and phone. When ever I am reading stories and an Author puts something like that up I'm like 'if you can post an Author's Note you can post a chapter, right?' So I wanted to explain. If you want to skip this because I'm annoying there's questions at the bottom, or you can get right on with the chapter.

So what happened was there was something wrong with my computer. i don't believe it was my fault as I've never done something like spilt a drink on it or dropped it or treaated it badly. It was some tecnological thing that's out of my head. I always write on my computer because typing on my phone is hard. Not to mention my screen is cracked.... Ya, I know I just said I treat my computer proparly and never drop it so what's up with the phone?

To be perfectly honest I tripped over some of my syblings stuff. Yes, it's still my fault but just so you know it was my first time breaking any electronic device. When I say it's cracked I mean shattered to the point where no matter the location I put one of my fingers its on a crack. Yep that bad. So I didn't want to write on my phone that much but there was something else.

Wattpad is (still) glitching with my phone. It keeps freezing or exiting out of the app. I tried restarting my phone, redownloading the app, closing out of it, waiting for my phone to die, all that stuff but it didn't work. So when I go into wattpad I have very little time. I get lucky sometiems but I wouldn't have the time to type it all out and I would just end up losing everything I wrote over and over again (speaking from experience.)

I deeply apologize. I feel really bad because I told everyone I would start updating regualarly only recently after dropping this story for months. I felt like some of you guys would be thinking that I lied and that I would be dropping the story again. I will not do that!

To try and make myself feel better by trying to make you guys feel better if you even felt bad (lol that's a tounge twister (not really I just re-read it and it isn't but it's a weird sentence d;)) I am going to update all the stories I've been missing all at once to get caught up. Not to mention I am going to add one chapter extra as an apology.

I am still not confident in the development of my story (or my story in general) but I then think about all the fanfics I've read where complete nonsense happens that doesn't make sense but I still love the book in all. Now I don't mean nonsense like comedy or fantasy I mean something that makes you cringe or just stare at it because people don't act like that.

Anyways, I'm not saying I know the value of this fanfic I am writing and I am definetly a harsh critic (pretty much only to myself) but all of you are supporting me so damn much and telling me how this makes you happy (all though half the time it was pretty depressing...) and I didn't want any of you guys who have done so much for me to feel any negative emotions that I caused. I know that's selfish the way I said it. I wouldn't want you guys feeling any negative emotions because then I'd be sad. I'm just saying the feeling I had was more guilt knowing that even one of you maybe felt a little bit sad because of me even if it was out of my hands.

By the way I am not making excuses for what happened (even though I just did in the last sentence). I think that it's my story, my computer, my phone, my plan, my everything so I take full responsability. (Didn't seem like it when half of this damn author's note is just excuses.... sorry....) I just really wanted you all to know how sorry I am. You all are such wonderful people

(Yes I'm starting that long parenthesies. Although I can't name everything about you (I can name a few things depending on the comments or profile) I can tell what your like. I know everyone is all like 'people either are way more mean on the interent or way more nice, they're not their selves but I don't like to believe that. Yes, we have time to calmly think about are response and not feel as preasured because of the lack of background knowledge but I think the people who are rude or mean (unjustifiably/just for fun) on the internent don't have as kind of a soul as those who are nicer, and God are you guys nice. Btw when I say mean I don't mean something like crituqing because that is nice because your being helpful, I mean someone who goes out and calls a person who does nothing wrong names or insults them. Okay sorry. This was ment to be a short explanatiton and now I'm talking about my readers true souls behind their screens.... wow. Okay I got to stop. Lets get out of these parentheisies.)