My Future in You [JJKFF] | COMPLETED

CHAPTER 32 - Save Me

"Get out of my head, someone save me from this madness, I'd rather be dead. All I see is reality fabricated by something I refuse to see. You know who I am. You created me by letting yourself believe. Take my cold dead hands and go six feet down, your failure is found." ~ Whitechapel

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Jiwon was doing the dishes when Jungkook tried to approach her again.

"Need some help?" Jungkook tried his best to talk to her.

"Nope! I'm almost done, you can leave already," she coldly answered him.

"Jiwon-ah, are you mad at me?" he guiltily asked her.

"Nope! I have nothing against you. No need to worry," heartless but the truth, her heart was shattering into pieces, how she wished she never talked to him a while ago.

"Then, why aren't you looking at me?"

"Because I'm looking at the dishes," she tried to play off.

"Look, I'm sorry about the way I treated you just now, but I have no intention to embarrass you in front of my friends. I was just teasing you and it happened to be at the wrong time."

She sighed, "It's okay, let us just forget about it," still not looking at Jungkook.

"Jiwonie, can we talk?" he wouldn't give up easily knowing his wife was still sulking.

"There's nothing to talk about."

"There are. A lot of. I have many questions to ask you."

"Then, ask."

"I want you to look at me while talking."

"Fine! Wait for me in the living room." She sighed while quickly finished off her work. She didn't want to talk to him if possible, but by the way he was asking her, it seemed serious. Maybe they can put an end to all the misery and misunderstanding. Eternally.

Jungkook was calmly resting himself on the couch while scrolling on his phone screen. Jiwon sat at the corner of the three seaters couch. Ready to be interrogated by Jungkook. She was quite nervous since she was anxious of the questions that will be asked.

"Tell me everything." He spilled his words the moment Jiwon sat next to him.

"E-every-everything?! What do you mean?"

"Jiwon-ah, I know you are hiding something from me. And I hate living in confusion and lies, I hate the fact that you are my wife but I don't know everything about you, I hate being monopolized by my own mother, I hate hearing something bad about you, I hate seeing you with someone which is not me, I hate not knowing how you exactly feel for me. I just...I just want you to be honest and trust me. I've told you before, you can rely on me. Do it. Share your burden with me," his long meaningful words came out without a pause. He really meant it.

Hearing how dejected his voice was, how caring and worried he feels, and how desperate he is to find out her feelings, she couldn't help the tears from flowing down her cheeks. He always cares for her but, the only thing she did was to hurt him. Again, and again. Pushing him away further and avoiding him as long as she could. She quickly looked away and wiped the tears painting her cheeks.

"Where do I start?" she was ready to tell him as much as she can.

"How about the day I found you laying unconsciously injured? Who did that?"

She sighed deeply, trying to regain all the strength she had to talk about the dreadful incident but apart from it, she was more hurt when Jungkook left her alone the very next day, she felt really lonely and hopeless afterwards. He wasn't there when she clearly needed someone by her side to comfort her. She was disappointed and her faith towards him was fading away little by little, day by day.