One Shot ( Fanfictions)

Both Lost (Buck Barnes x reader, Steve Rogers)

warning: sad, implied sex 

Summary: Reader isn't the only one who is head over heels for Steve neither is he the only one getting sibling zoned

(y/n) rolled over looking up at the ceiling. It was familiar to her but at the same time, it wasn't. She looked to her side she knew who this guy was, Kevin, so she wasn't as worried as she should have been. She sighed getting up she slipped on her clothes. This was their arrangement this was the how it was supposed to go she came when she needed him then left. If he caught feeling or tried to put a label on it she'd immediately cut him off just like the others.

This was how she handled feelings by not feeling and being physical. She liked to get physical. Don't get her wrong she liked to get physical with feelings but she couldn't get physical and have feelings with the true person she wanted to.

Steve Roger, she loved him since the first day they met but and Steve loved her but not in the way she loved him. She loved him in a romantic way and saw a future with him. Steve loved her in a sibling kind of way he didn't see a future with her at least not in that sense. And Steve never told her how he truly felt towards her she actually didn't know how he felt towards her until recently.

(y/n) had gone out with an old friend they were an old fashion diner. They loved going to places like this. When they were enjoying their meal (y/n) noticed Steve was there as well she got up and snuck up on him.

"what are you, doing" she said loudly in his ear startling him

"Jesus Christ (y/n). What are you doing here? who else is with you" he said looking a bit panic.

"I'm here having dinner with a friend. what about you?" The question answered its self as a woman came over and took a seat across from Steve. (y/n) notice how Steve began to blush. It took her all but a few seconds to put everything together. "oh"

"Um. yeah, (y/n) this is Gwen, Gwen this is (y/n). She's my best friend .. basically my sister when it thinks about." On the outside (y/n) didn't react she laughed it off agreed with him. She even made a joke about him finally getting laid. She then went back to her friend and he went back to her friend. On the outside, she was cool with Steve and cheering for him.

On the inside, her heart had shattered into a million. On the inside, she was nude and broken. The inside hurt but at the same time, it was numb. She felt everything and nothing at the same time. She was his sister, she was his sister there was no chance of ever being his lover because she was his sister.

That was when everything changed. She use to hang with Steve every day now she hung with him when work was involved. She use to tell him everything now she just bottled everything up. She use to spends nights with Steve when she or he couldn't sleep now she just called up her booty call.

Steve noticed the change in her behavior but never got the chance to confront her about her. She was always on the move now and days.

It was about 4 am when (y/n) stumbled out of the cab and into the tower it was late or too early for anyone to be up. or so she thought.

"late night," Bucky said startling (y/n) as she enters the kitchen for water.

"Christ what are you doing up late sneaking around" (y/n) said clenching her heart. She was pretty sure it stopped beating.

"I couldn't sleep. I would ask you what you're doing up but your hair answers the question." (y/n) ignores him and gets a glass of water " So who was it this time John, Mark, Max" Bucky said annoyed and disgusted.

"Listen I one I don't need your judgment this early in the morning, and two I don't hop from dick to dick-"

"so same guy from last week" (y/n) ignored him going to her room. Bucky was the only one who knew about her sleeping around because he often caught her coming and leaving late at night. She was pretty sure Tony knew as well but never said anything.

Bucky followed her to her room "why do you sleep around I don't understand your beautiful you could have anyone yet here you are sleeping around with random guys ... why"

"you wouldn't understand"

"try me"

"You don't ... Do you know how it feels to love someone who just straight up goes to your face and tells you they don't love you and never will"

"Sort of ... yeah"

Unknowingly to (y/n), Bucky knew exactly how she felt because he too had fallen in love with Steve along ago. Even when he was brainwashed he still clung to the feeling of loving Steve and that had actually helped him escaped hydra and get out of their hold. It wasn't until he hears Steve say to Tony " He's like my brother" that Bucky's world truly fell apart.

Bucky knew what she doing he had done it as well back in the 1930s and 40s. He didn't believe Steve love him and also knew that even if he did they couldn't be together because of social rules and the possible dangers. Hiding his feelings resulted in him running around sleeping around with random girls.

But when Bucky came to in this generation he thought there was a chance then he heard Steve say those words. Chance flew out the window. Instead of going his old ways and sleeping around he put some distance between him and Steve and blamed it on still getting used to everything. It was surprisingly easy for him. But it didn't look easy to (y/n).

"It's Steve, isn't it?

"what?"

"it's Steve"

"I'm like his sister" (y/n) said turning her back to Bucky as she walked into her room. She didn't want him to see the tears spilling from her eyes.

"And I'm like his brother," Bucky said entering her room. And now she understood that he fell for Steve as well. What was it that Steve had that made everyone fall for him.

"We got sibling zoned" (y/n) laughed as the tears dripped from her chin. Bucky hugged her from behind she felt a wetness on the back of her neck. He was crying too. "we got sibling zoned" she cried hugging Bucky's arms to herself.

"why doesn't he love us " (y/n) cried turning in Bucky's arm and hugged him.

"I don't know I really don't know " Bucky cried into her shoulder.

The two cried in each other arms for a few moment. When they were done they let each other go and sat on (y/n)'s bed wiping their tears. "There must be something really good about Steve since we've both fell in love with him," Bucky said.

"maybe he's just that good" (y/n) said sniffing a bit.

"He's too good for us," Bucky said taking her hand in his.

They both fell for a man that they saw a future as they fell for a man that wouldn't give them a future. They both hurt for a man that would never give them what they lust for. They wanted a lover he wanted a family.

" I... would you join me in my next midnight run?" Bucky asked.

After that night (y/n) stopped sleeping around and just hung with Bucky. They both held each other down. They became best friends Steve became the somewhat lacking third wheel.

A year later Steve would marry that girl from the diner, Gwen, Bucky would be the best man and (y/n) would be a bridesmaid. They both congratulated him and gave speeches they both smiled the biggest smiles they could smile that night. Later on in the night when the party was over and the two newlyweds ran off to their honeymoon Bucky and (y/n) cried that night they both cried in each other on as the one they loved since one day fell in love and continued on with someone else.

The two cried in each other's arms. The woman that had stolen their love was now their family. They cried for the love they had both lost.