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Chapter- 19

Johns POV

I looked at alex in horror, he was holding the side of his face. Tears were pouring out my eyes and alex's. He looked more hurt then mad. He actually looked more sorry then disappointed.

I wanted to go over their. I wanted to be the one to hug him and tell him everything's gonna be ok. But how? I was the one that did this.

"Alexander.."

"S-save it John.. you've done enough." He held up his hands in a way to get me to stay away. I looked at his wound. Pretty much his face was swollen and red. He crossed his arms and walked off.

I jumped up onto a branch and started climbing back up. I'm so done

Alex's POV
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The only thing that ran threw my mind was. What have I gotten myself into? The love of my life clearly hates me for something that I was proving. I'm sorry my opinion sucks. But it's for the best right? I wouldn't change myself for the world. Wait, does that mean he'll be straight?

Whatever it is, I think I have to move on now. I don't want to. But why would I try to get him back? Why would I try so hard for someone so.. ambitious. It probably doesn't even matter.

I kept slowly dabbing at my face with my palm. It hurt like hell. The guy that used to be so fun, and quite.. beat the living shit out of me.

The sun had already gone away and the lights of cars and ads were painted in every direction. The chilly night air hitting my face. It didn't bother me, matter a-fact it felt good.

As I made it to a four way, I stopped to check and chat on my phone.

Lexi😏🔥: hey um.. imma leave this Groupchat ok? Not that anyone would be awake..

I quickly typed feeling more and more pain. It felt like it was heading to my eye. More tears (that weren't from my feelings) were coming out.

10:03

LaffyTaffy😜‼️:Awe why?

Laffytaffy😜‼️: we don't go to bed until 12:00 Alexander, you know that for a fact.

I sighed.

Lexi😏🔥: I'll explain sometime else just get sleep or something, that's unhealthy.

Herc💙: oh ok ;)
Mom

Laffytaffy😜‼️:LMAOO

Lexi😏🔥 left the Groupchat

Oh great, a headache. The best thing to ever happen. I slowly arrived at the cafe, not wanting to go home just yet. I didn't order anything either. I just sat at the table by the window. Starring at traffic and the lights to stop and go.

I don't know what I'm doing with my life. Should I take a different direction? Cause the one I'm in now just leads me to the point where I could jump off a bridge. Or bury myself alive. I'll just ignore it. Like I did that time on the couch. Never will I regret that. He keeps pushing me away and treating me like trash now. But it's possible to still love him. Those are just holes that need to be filled. I have no idea what will fill them in, but I bet I'll have to find out for myself. This isn't the John I knew when he first walked through the High school. This wasn't the john who kissed me passionately and admitted to have liked me since day one. No, this was a john who was either being physically abused with words or not. Someone or himself is keeping these dumb ass thoughts in his head.

My thoughts soon drifted off when I felt my head give way. Then I was out.

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