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Chapter-28

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Alex's POV.
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"J-John.." I muttered after breaking away from that snazzy moment in the hallway. I looked into Johns eyes and saw happiness and guilt. Nothing looked horrifyingly wrong, everything seemed just right. I love him so much and I wouldn't replace him for the world. Something just seemed off though. I couldn't quite say what, but it was bothering me.

"Yes?" He asked rather slowly. The silence was once filled as his face got red. I should've known he loved me this whole time. It's just hard to understand people that are hard to get to. John was very difficult. Especially since he had someone controlling his every move. But I don't blame him. James tried to go after Lafayette and, see where Laf got?

"I-.. I love you so god damn much.. whatever happened the first time.. I'm sorry—" I murmured.

"Oh my gosh, Lexi it's not your fault!" He waved his hands out at me and I felt worse because I knew I made him feel bad. John has been mentally and physically hurt for a long time. I don't need to get told I'm the one getting hurt. I was emotionally torn, but now I'm fine. And as in fine I mean I'm great. I have John now and that's all that matters.

"John.."

"Lexi I swear. I'm so sorry I just— it's hard to not do things that people tell you to.. when you're new. I just wanted to be cool like everyone else seemed to be. And James gave me tips. But then he went to far.. I didn't stop.. knowing what happened to Laf.. I just couldn't.." he choked out a sob but no tears ever came out. I don't think their were any left at this point. I'm sure he'd been crying for a while now.

"John nothing is anyone's fault but James.. I love you for you.. and I'm sure it was hard to say you didn't love me the first time.." I grabbed his arms and pulled him into a choking hug. Then a smirk creeped on my face."no one would ever be able to get away from my Hotness anyways." I felt john pull away and playfully punch my arm. I laughed and planted kisses all over his face when he wasn't paying attention.

"Really Alexander, really?" He laughed. His smile was so beautiful and hard to resist.

"Really, Johnny." I crept behind him and grabbed his waste while rocking side to side . He hummed in comfort and rested his head on my shoulder. I like this sort of attention. All I need is john, my friends, and to finally be happy. No one will ever replace John and I mean it. Not even my dignity.
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We finally made it outside, to the bench where our other friends were sitting at. The sun was shining really bright and barely any clouds were noticeable. Peggy and Laf were throwing rocks over the fence and purposely trying to be a nuisance to their peers.

While everyone else sat on the ground and chit chartered about the upcoming events during summer. It'll be gray though, we're planning on going on a trip. That's cool right? Well sorta. Knowing me.. I'd rather stay home and keep watch on important things like my computer. But John was going and I was definitely going as well.

I grabbed Johns hand and we sat down side by side. Maybe a little too close at that. He rested his head on my shoulder and I hummed in response.

Everything felt so peaceful, even if people were screaming near by.. I just ignored it. I didn't have time to worry about everyone else. I had time to worry if John was actually ok. And I hadn't brought up the 'cancer' part yet. It's to painful to think about also. Why would I bring up such a devastating subject only too feel heartbroken in the process? I wouldn't.. because I love john to much to hurt him in any way.

But not all of this is about John. I feel so awful and our friends do to. We promised to not bring it up on any circumstances. Even if we had the dumbest or best question to be asked.

I love him.. I really do.

"What is this?" I heard Laf say jogging over with Peggy by his side.

"Um.. a true relationship?" I half said then asked. It's true though. This relationship will be the best and only relationship I'll have. And if not that.. then nothing.

"Woah.. seriously?" Hercules asked sitting beside me and john, putting his head in his hands and smiled warmly. I love it when they're supportive and good friends. They are supportive.. knowing some of them aren't straight. But it's just how carefully they take it. At least I'm not secretly straight and only dating John to make him happy. I'm just being me.

"Yes 'seriously' and we're keeping it serious, mind you." John replied rather playfully then sarcastically. I loved this side of John. But I loved john one hundred percent more then anything else he could consume.

"Sassy ass!" Laf and herc laughed and plotted back down on the ground.

All I could hear from everyone else was 'how cute' or 'awe'. I looked down below me to see who was all here.

Thomas had James in his lap. While Eliza sat beside Angelica. And another girl was beside Peggy with the smell of fame. I grabbed Johns hand tighter just for comfort and starred at her. She wore a red t-shirt with jean shorts.

I think her name was Maria. But I've never seen her before. Ever.

Maria Reynolds.