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Chapter-32

^^Guess what? Violet is my cat 😌💓

((Alex's POV))

He'll be ok..

I felt a swift movement happen behind me while I was still holding John. He was still sleeping, and he looked more normal than he did a few hours ago. So I took the chance to clean him off. I know it was a stupid move after  waiting until  he looked a little healthier to clean off the all blood. But risking waking him up after he might have a huge headache in the process was a no. . And It was now seven-o-three so he could wake up any minute. The sun hasn't set yet but it was on the verge of doing so.

Everyone was upstairs doing who knows what from what I know. And violet was digging in the trash close by. I'm guessing that's what the sound was.

I reached over and played with Johns hair softly. It's tangles getting caught in my fingers. He had a really rough couple hours from so much shifting and whimpers. That's all I could do, was watch him. That is, until he wakes up of course.

The memories started flooding back. Not that I cared. It's nice to know I beat someone's ass again. I've missed doing that and didn't regret it. We're all fam in that school, you mess with one of my siblings then you get the shit knocked out. I don't know why we are like that. Nor do I know how we all still resist each other. We just do. I wish the world was like our school. Kinda..

They should really put James in his spot though. Cause as far as I know, it's like six hundred against one. Try us.

"Lex-" I heard John say but it ended with a hiss of pain. I quickly grabbed his waist and lazily, smoothly, pulled him up. Fûck it, we're in a relationship. I grabbed Johns thighs and pulled them up around my waist. He wrapped his legs around me and lied his head on my chest.

"My stomach hurts Lexi.." he mumbled in the material of my shirt. I kissed his head and walked over to the recliner. Slowly placing him in it and returning back with the rag, bucket, and water.

"I know love." I said softly. His eyes dropped tiredly but he wasn't tired. He was just getting used to the light and blurs around the place. Trying to focus and get his vision back.

"I'm sorry." He rubbed his eyes and looked at me.

"Shh Stop apologizing." I said grabbing the washcloth and dabbing his forehead with it. He relaxed at this and sunk deeper in the chair.

"But you know I'm sorry I've done so many bad things to you and I'm so blind and I can't do anything right I'm so messed up right no-" He started rambling on and on about how useless he was and how everything is his fault. I cut him off and he was a little surprised.

"John! That's what I'm talking about though, I don't want you spending your whole life apologizing for things that should be forgotten." I said a little louder then last time. He sunk further in the chair. I don't think he could possibly go any more now."Your supposed to cherish these moments while they last." I sighed getting on my knees and handing him a water bottle.

"But.. I don't know how long I have.." he said on the verge of tears.

"John I know your strong and I know your not going anytime soon. If you go.. then hopefully the world ends right after."

"Alexander!"

"Seriously john. I will stand outside in a huge field and try my best to be the first to die if so."

John sighed in defeat and started drinking more. I starred at him for a little bit. Questions and other things swirling in my head right now. What's it like to die? It's not a suicide question. Do people actually go to hell? Or is it just a way to make people scared to do right? Would god really burn what he made? Well ya, the world ends. Fire happens. But us.

"John I love you."

"I love you too.." he threw his water bottle in the kitchen and violet started attacking it like all hell broke loose.

"Your all I ever need.."

Time will never be out john.. I promise