"The Only Way I Know" (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 2

***Hey guys I don't know who's actually reading this but I'm apologizing now for my short first chapter and I promise to make Chapter 2 longer!! Okay thanks!!:)***

And that's exactly what I planned to do. That morning of my 20th birthday I got up and headed downstairs to the kitchen to where I know my mom would be sitting in her chair, drinking a cup of coffee, acting way happier than what she actually is. I walked in and immediately she peered up from her glasses and newspaper and ran over and embraced me in a bone crushing hug. Ugh.

"Happy birthday Shay! I cannot believe my baby is 20. Omg that means I'm getting old." Mom spoke into my hair as I felt her hot breathe fan near my ear.

"Well atleast you have finally come to your senses about getting older." I mumbled quietly next to mum. Just loud enough for her to hear.

"Dear don't put a damper on the mood now. Aren't you excited that your twenty? And your halfway through college?! So much more awaits you after you finish college, you can be the amazing lawyer we all know you can be."

Ugh now you remind me. Lawyer. That word just doesn't appeal to me as much as it did in the past. In the last year I would be all over wanting to hurry up with my schooling so I could graduate and become a lawyer and now somebody could say the word and I wouldn't blink an eye. Hmm lawyer. I feel as if anymore my mum is more excited for be to become a lawyer than I actually am. It's quite sad. I quickly get pulled out of my own thoughts.

"Shay you fag, happy birthday. I hope it's a fun as the last couple." Said Jade.

With that my stomach automatically flipped thinking back to 3 years ago on this day. My mom kicked my dad out if the house because he had cheated on her. I still don't like to think about it , it makes me sick to my stomach. It was honestly probably the worst day of my life.

*FLASHBACK*

I'm woken up to the sounds of drawers opening and slamming shut and the loud sounds of my mum screaming at my dad. I quietly creeped out of my bed and slightly cracked open the door to figure out what was going on. Down the hall to the right is where the noise is coming from. I tiptoed over to see what was happening and I looked in to find my dad with his suitcase opened and him opening his drawers and placing all of his clothes and belongings into it while my mom is screaming at the top of her lungs at him. I have no idea whats going on. As another loud screech is heard, almost on cue Jade walks out of her room and comes trotting over beside me to see what is going on. We both just looked at each other in the eyes with complete confusion. Then we heard something my father said about leaving and he was going to stay at some hotel if my mom would care to know where he was going to be. She just sat with her back against the wall, quiet sobs escaping her lips. Then my father came out of his room with his suitcase in his hand and red, watery eyes.

"You girls should really go back to sleep, it's really early." Is what my father said.

Jade and I just both stood there not knowing what to say. I had never once saw my father cry,except for today, my 17th birthday. Just as he was about to walk down the spiral steps my mum came out of her room.

She looked like the life had been ripped out of her and just her body was there. Her face lacked any emotion that could have been shown.

"What..wh-what happened?" Was the first thing that came out of Jades mouth.

"Why don't you tell her Bill tell her whats happened?" My mom spit at my dad with venom laced through all her words.

My dad just stood there looking at the ground. Not saying a word. Until my mum spoke up.

"Now is definitely not the time you should be quiet. Go on! Tell them what happened!"

My fathers head slowly started to rise until he met Jade and I's eyes.

"I...uh..I don't know how t-to say this.."

"TELL THEM! THEY NEED TO HEAR YOU SAY IT"

"Girls you know I love you guys and your mom to pieces, right?"

We both nodded our heads up and down, while mom stared at him with crazy and tired, red eyes.

"And I would never do anything to purposely hurt any of you because you guys all mean the world to me"

"Is that the speech you tell all if your mistresses?" my mom spat.

My eyes opened wide at the use of the word 'mistresses'. That could only mean one thing.

"Dad just tell us.." I spoke softly.

"Uh...I-I had an af-affair with somebody."

With that his head went back to starting down at the ground. As we all stood there at the top of the stairs trying to take this all in. My dad, the person I look up to when I need help or need strength, the one who supposedly loves/loved my mom, has cheated on her.

"How...how could you!???! How could you do this to mom..to us..to our family?!??!" Jade shrieked.

Dad didn't say a word. He just slowly descended down the steps until he got to the door and took one last glance up to the family he just tore apart with one asinine action.

He called "I love all you guys to pieces and I hope you all know that." Before quickly walking out of the door and shutting it softly.

It was silent, nothing to be heard in the house except for the clock on the mantel in our living room. Then the silence was cut.

"This is all your fault Shay." Jade screeched.

"This is all of your fault, maybe if you would just act and be normal for once in your life and not always fight with mom and dad, dad wouldn't have cheated on mom. This is all your fault."

With that being said mom just sat on the ground with a blank stare being held on her face as she starred off into space.

"And you know what Shay I will never forgive you." Jade snapped that remark and ran to her bedroom and shut the door.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

So that's basically it. That's why my sister hates me. She started and hadn't stopped yet even after 3 years, even when I try to explain to her that I had no control over the situation. She still hates me and makes my birthday every year a living hell because she thinks I am the one who tore our family apart.

"Honey, Jade, please apologize to your sister. We know you don't mean it."

But Jade did, every single word she meant it. And right here this is why I want and need change.