Para Lang Sa Yo

Aftermath...

I slightly opened my eyes after i heard a  closing of the bathroom door.

Nandun pa rin ako lugar kung saan ako nawalan nang malay...

sana di na lang ako nagising....

i wanted to die at that very moment.

Di ko alam kung paano ko haharapin ang sarili ko.

I slowly stood up...

.....but  noticed that i was fully covered and i was wearing the same clothes i was wearing that night. 

Except for the terrible hangover i was feeling.. i was not hurting anywhere.

I was a little confused at that time.

Then i saw Paolo, with clothes on, approached me.

"Sarah, .. ok ka na? Mabuti naman nagising ka na.." he said..

 "Paolo... ang sakit pa rin nang ulo ko..."

"yikes hangover.. sge ikukuha kita nang coffee..."

"paolo... did we.." i asked him before he left..

he smiled back at me... with a devilish grin... he answered... " syiempre .... 

syiempre......

hindi, sabi mo wag eh..."

I jumped at Paolo and hugged him tightly.

"THank you... , thank you.. " i sobbed while hugging him..

"sarah you're lucky ako ang kasama mo ha... hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ko pinigilan ang sarili ko... pasalamat ka naalala ko ang mga kapatid at pinsan kong babae"

"salamat ..salamat... "

"nakita ko kasi yung takot sa mga mata mo.. isa pa .. naramdaman ko naman na ayaw mo talaga... hindi naman ako rapist "

"sige mag wash up ka na .. so i can take you back to the club where your car is...that is if you want leave na... , you can stay naman till the morning.. para at least mas ok ka na.."

"paolo.. "

"sarah no tears... marami rami na rin akong nakitang babae na katulad mo.. kung ano man ang pinagdadaanan mo.. maayos din yan..."

"buti ikaw ang nakilala ko..."sagot ko sa kanya...

"sarah buti naka-pagpigil ako...  and yes we are still a living breed"  sagot ni Paolo..

Binigyan nya ako nang towel at damit na pambabae. Minsan daw kasi dun sa kanya natutulog ang younger sister nya especially pag may mga gimik ito sa area.

I cried a lot sa loob nang bathroom. I thank the Lord dahil alam ko He protected me at the lowest point in my life. 

Humingi rin ako nang tawad dahil somehow i forgot that life is not all about heartache and love.. and i had no right to be selfish, self centered and to self destruct dahil inspite of the pain.. i had a good life..