Para Lang Sa Yo

Hidden Truth

More than a week has passed but the silent turmoil in the house hasn't subsided. The house was quiet but is far from being peaceful.

After the confrontation hindi pa uli kami nakitang magkakasamang kumain, mag usap o magsama sama man lang sa iisang lugar sa bahay.

Laging nag-iiwasan, lahat kami refusing to back down. 

I admit i missed my Kuya's so much. Pero kailangan ko rin ipaintindi sa kanila ang mga pinagdadaanan ko.

Kuya Janus and I would secretly meet outside of the house. Ayaw nya kasi ipakita kila Kuya na nag-uusap kami kasi he feels it would  further aggrevate and polarize the family.

na-explain ko sa kanya si Gerald,  gaya nang dati.. i guess dahil bukod sa mahal namin ang isa't isa ..Kuya respected and understood me. Hindi man sya 100% convinced that Gerald and I have a bright future ahead, he still wished na maayos din ang lahat at mabigayan nang pagkakataon kung ano man ang nasimulan ko with gerald.

"Sige tulungan kita hanapin yung mokong na yun..pero pag nakita natin yun.. kelangan ko makilala ha.. pero teka.. maganda ba yung Kim?"

Makulit pa rin talaga si Kuya.. he never fails to make me laugh.. i guess sa kanya ko nakuha yung trait na yun.

We both know na si Kuya Diet lang ang paraan para mas mapadali ko na makita at makausap si gerald. 

"problema lang kung paano natin makukuha sa kanya... pero alam mo knowing Diether..di ka rin matitis nun.. lambingin mo lang yan.. lalambot din" dagdag ni Kuya.

Walang araw na hindi ako nagbabakasakali na makita si gerald. i tried to locate him through social media or business contacts but it seems like wala kaming connection at all except if i go through KUya Diether.

may mga araw na i doubted na magkikita pa kami ..pero lagi kong naalala ang sunrise and what it represents.. 

i could only hope that time na he's also trying to find me.. and he that he knows i haven't stopped trying to find a way for us to ,at least see each other one more time.

Hindi naman ako binigo ni Kuya Janus.. he tried to help.. kaya lang unfortunately he was called by Dad to help them sa US pansamantala.

"Kaya mo to Sarah.. wag ka mag-alala.. lilipas din galit ni Dom at Diether.. , mag-iingat ka at Good luck sa paghahanap kay gerald"

With that umalis si Kuya Janus. The house never felt more lonely .

Lagi rin wala sila Kuya. It's either out of town si Kuya Dominic habang busy naman si Kuya Diether sa kanyang bar / club. 

Minsan naabutan ko si Kuya Diether having breakfast. I tried to reach out to him dahil pakiramdam ko  habang tumatagal kaming di nag-uusap lalong bumibigat ang sitwasyon namin sa bahay.

"Kuya , can i join you? " tanong ko sa kanya .

Hindi man kumibo si Kuya, i still joined him for breakfast.

"Kuya, kamusta ang bar mo? Mukhang umaga ka na lagi umuuwi ah? " 

 Tumingin sa akin si Kuya  " kelan ka pa naging interesado sa club ko? " sagot nya.. 

Galit pa rin sa akin si Kuya. Dati rati malambing nito akong kakausapin. Walang araw dati na hindi kami nag-kwekwentuhan.   He used to be my confidante.

Seloso din si Kuya Diether. Hindi daw sya papayag na may ibang may gwapo sa buhay ko. Kaya nuung naging kami ni Echo,  it took months bago nito kinibo at kinausap si Echo. 

I used to kid him a lot too, sabi ko unfair kasi sya ang dami nya laging girlfriend.

Kuya would always say I'm still the prettiest and ako lang daw ang nag-iisang prinsesa sa buhay nya. Sobrang na-miss ko yun kay Kuya Diether.