Para Lang Sa Yo

Against All Odds..

I am sorry Sarah..  but i've never felt like this before..

I don't want to ruin your life but if i was not meant for you and you for me...

we should have not met ...

Fate  is not cruel..  

 i will find you..and will get you back.. even if i have to go to hell and back..

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I never felt more alive since that day. 

Yes i only shared a night.. and a sunrise ..but those are the moments you live for.. you fight for ..and you never let go.

I don't care what other people think or what will happen to me and my  reputation.. those i can live without ... 

I shared with Sarah my place of sanity.. i wanted to show beauty at its simplest form.

not because i want her.. but because she deserves it.

at the back of my head , it may help her find what she's looking for.

i wanted her to experience what i feel everytime i'm there. the serenity that clears your mind and heart.  the overwhelming feeling of being one with nature.  ..

that feeling of finding yourself again ..amidst the troubles of the outside world.

and nature did not fail me..

tears fell from her eyes when she saw it. i knew she felt what i have been priviliged to witness everytime i need to find my lost self.

i found her .... her eyes says it all.

i don't know her completely .. but i saw her. 

and we shared  one of the most unforgatteble moments in my life.

i can  no longer resist,     so i  kissed her ..

and she kissed me back.  

Our bodies were cold..and tired because we haven't slept .. but when our eyes and lips met  , i felt her warmth.

i kissed her passionately until we were breathless. i couldn't help but notice tears fell from her eyes

i could tell she was overwhelmed too ...we were both so caught off the moment

i held her tight and wanted that moment to last...

until.....

our nanny rudely interrupted our moment.

She  was suddenly  distant and guarded. I could tell she was hiding what she truly feels when she talked  casually about our moment.....

and i couldn't blame her.. i knew it was going too fast.. 

but i will assure her..and  i will let her know it will be worth fighting for.

 driving back to the coffe shop... although she was silent and looking oustide the car ...

i can feel how scared she was..  how she tried to hide that she was crying.

Di ko kayang palampasin to.

I stopped the car and gathered all my guts. I needed her to know what i feel .

" ...i am  willing to take my chances with you Sarah" and kissed her again.

She repsonded by kissing me back. 

and  i kept kissing her back.. 

If not for an irritated fruit vendor on the street , neither one of us who have stopped kissing each other.