Para Lang Sa Yo

Break from it All

(moving forward po, maghahalo na ang storytelling.. kumbaga the story unravels both from their point of view)

The moment pumasok si Gerald sa bathroom, naramdaman ko uli ang lungkot at ang bigat nang problema na dinadala ko. I felt weak and cold. Masakit ang katotohanan. 

I was born and raised by my family as their princess.. yun pala pekeng prinsesa lang ako.

I kept asking myself why they hid it from me. Maiintindihan ko naman. Hindi naman makitid ang utak ko para di munawaan yun. Sila pa rin naman ang pamilya ko at wala nang iba.

Si Kuya Diether.. kahit gusto ko pa rin isipin na walang halong malisya lahat nang pagmamahal at pag-aaruga nya sa akin.  I looked back and realized kaya pala minsan iba ang mga yakap at paglalambing nya. Iba kay Kuya Janus at Kuya Dom.

Tears began to fall again.. It's sickening for me to recall all my memories with Kuya Diether..

All the while pala he was thinking of something else...

I lay down the bed sideways and continued sobbing. I couldn't shake the feeling.

After a while, i heard the bathroom door open. Gerald immediately lay beside me when he heard me crying . 

"babe... " he said . He wrapped his arms around me and gently kissed my head.

"Gusto mo bang pag-usapan natin" he asked me. "o kaya stop thinking about it first para makatulog ka ... gusto mo kantahan kita babe?."

Natawa ako sa sinabi nya.. " sintonado ka naman babe eh, pero sige.. gusto ko yung nasa pamapagana playlist mo.."

"Ayan naman o.. sige para sa Babe Sasa ko.." he pulled me closer and he started singing 

"Close your eyes...make a wish.. and blow out the candle light...for tonight is just your night we're gonna celebrate all through the night.."

"Ay naku.. hanggang kanta ka lang naman pala Babe..eh kanina you had the chance kaso...." i said.

"Babe wag kang ganyan.. hindi mo alam kung gaano ako nagtitimpi ngayon.... ." he said..

"hahaha.." i realized i was still half naked under the sheets.

"nagtitimpi talaga babe" i free myself from his embrace then pulled myself up and out of the bed  grabbed the sheets that serves my cover.

"o sige dun na lang ako sa couch matutulog.."

He pulled me back and pinned me down the bed. He went on top of me..smiling  and said

. "Babe ang pilya mo....tapos.. may pagka bipolar din" saka nya ako hinalikan sa lips.

After we kissed he lay down beside me again and pulled me in a position wherein we were facing each other.  

" Tulog ka na babe... everything will be sorted out soon.. for now you have to rest your mind.. "

he kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around me .

I looked at him and said.." hindi mo alam kung paano mo napa-gaan ang loob ko.., this night could have been a nightmare..... but you somehow pulled me back in and opened a new reality"

Hindi ako nag-isip... sinabi ko ang nararamdaman ko " it's hard to feel Love during this time.. madami akong tanong sa isip ko.. sa pamilya ko...pero dahil sa yo....

alam ko at sigurado ako... Mahal kita" .

I smiled at him and he gave me the most assuring smile i ever saw in my entire life.