GoodBye [ Jimin X Reader ]

Chapter 15

WARNING : Self-harm contents (again) and some physical bullying
Please read the A/N below !!!! Quite important ¿
YOUR POV
I was walking to the class to take my bag until I saw ...... them

Park jimin my boyfriend and hyunnie my bully , making out . They were kissing each other passionately , hyunnie moaning jimin's name loudly . I couldn't bare to look at the scene without heartbreaking and quickly ran home without taking my bag home . Once I reach home , I went to my room and lock the door , finding my best friend , the one who truly loves me ...... the blade . I went to the bathroom and sat on the floor , cutting while crying my eyes out . Lots of thoughts came into my mind again .
'Does he really like me ?'

'Are they making out just now'

'What am I to you park jimin?'

I kept cutting and cutting until my hands are full of cuts and no more space left to cut . After few hours of cutting and crying , I finally stop and went to clean my cuts . I was tired and dizzy due to losing too much blood . I check the time and saw that it's already dinner time and I haven't cook any food for my brother yet ! But I was too weak to even move so I just lay down on my bed , thinking about all the incidents that happened today . A door banging sound interrupted my thoughts . I turn around and saw my brother . 'Can he open the door by turning the freaking door knob ? Stop banging my door it'll soon fall and break uhhh'
"Bitch where's my dinner ?" My brother asked .
"Why don't you cook yourself ? I'm really tired of all this shit already ! " I fired back, which is not a good idea . He look as if he could kill people right now . He came I mean storm over to my bed and pull my wrist making me stand up . He grab hardly on the wrist that has freshly new cut I just did just now . It stings and burns so badly .
"S-stop , it hurts" I cried out . He didn't care at first and grabbed tighter . I screamed out as I could feel the cut open again and blood gushing out , making my shirt wet with blood . He looked shock as I usually never scream or shout when I'm getting beaten . He rolled up my sleeves so fast that I haven't process what happened . He looked at my hand full of cuts , his expression darkened , his eyes filled with pain and ..... regret ¿ I quickly yank my hand out from his grip and he just stood there blankly . After a few seconds he looked up , staring at my face . His eyes was filled with shocked but mostly regret . We stare at each other for few seconds until he slapped me .
"You're really a depressed kid huh ? Cutting yourself . Yea you should ! YOU KILLED MUM AND DAD YOU DESERVE EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE TO YOU BITCH ! " and with another slap , he left . I just stood there , shocked . I thought that maybe if my brother know what I've been through , he will stop bullying me and treat me as his sister .
"Now I know , miracles never happen , dreams never come true ...... I miss my old brother . What happened to us ?" I laugh a little , I think I'm going crazy .
I just went and write my diary
"Dear diary ,
Today , I saw jimin and hyunnie making out . He even kissed hyunnie in public , did he forget that he's dating me right now and not hyunnie ? He didn't even help me when hyunnie bullied me this morning :) I wonder if our relationship will stay like that forever ? But is there even a forever between both of us haha ? After school I saw them again , making out ..... again . I ran home and started cutting myself again . But this time , i cut my whole arm . I would continue cutting but there's no more space left for me to cut . Today , my brother found out that I cut . I thought at least he would pity me but no instead he told me I deserve what ever he did to me because I killed our parents ..... and the worst thing is that I trusted everything he said :)
The end "
After writing my diary I went to my bed and cried myself to sleep , hoping tomorrow will be better .

HYUNGWON'S POV
I came back home tired today . I saw there's no food prepared . I stormed up to that bitch of my sister room and bang her door open . I saw her laying down on her bed . 'So she's getting lazy now huh ?' I walked to her bed and grab her wrist . Her expression changed when I grab her wrist .
"S-stop it hurts " she said .
I ignored her because I was too angry . Instead , I grab tighter and that makes her scream out . I looked at her confuse as she never scream when I bully or punish her . I felt something wet on my hand when I grab her wrist . I saw her sleeves were wet . I rolled up her sleeves quickly and saw her hand was full of ...... cuts .
'S-she cuts ?' I thought
I looked at her , she looked so skinny now and her face and body was full of bruises cause by mostly me . I regretted a little but the fact that she killed our parents reminded me that she deserve all of this . I shook away the little bit of regret and slapped her and said something mean to her , before leaving I left another slap on her cheek . I left the room and hide behind the wall to see her reaction . I saw her standing there , shocked . Then few seconds later she said something .
"Now I know , miracles never happen , dreams never come true ....... I miss my old brother . What happened to us ?" And she laughed .
I felt my heart squeeze a little after hearing the last sentence she said . It really did my broke my heart , a little . I ran out of home and went to a pub to drink away all my thoughts .

A/N
Sorry for not updating yesterday 😶 Exams are coming and I'll not be posting for 2 weeks , maybe I'll TRY posting but probably won't :) and I noticed that my Wattpad can't use the italics and the bolded font i dont know why 🤷🏻‍♀️ anyways thanks for reading and supporting this book as always 🙌🏻 I'll shoutout to those who voted a lot for me on the next chapter ❤️❤️ reaching 1k GUYSSS ❤️🌚