GoodBye [ Jimin X Reader ]

Chapter 33

Get your tissues ready, maybe idk :p

YOUR POV

Soon it was morning again and of course, I didn't sleep again. I woke up and quickly change to presentable clothes as I'm meeting Jimin today oh wait, today is our last day together. I felt kind of sad that we couldn't make more memories but oh well at least we did make some memories together. I changed into this 👇

and went down to see the dining table is already filled with food. My brother came out of the kitchen with an apron. 'Did he cook it for me?'
"Oh, Yoona you are awake. Come, sit down and eat. I cooked us some breakfast!" My brother motioned me to sit once he saw me. I hesitantly went to the dining table and sat down. I scooped some food and before the food is in my mouth, it was slapped away from me. I looked up and saw it was my brother who slapped it away. I turned and saw Mr.Andrew and Mrs.Natalie came down. 'So that's why he acted that way. He's scarred of what they will think of him if he stood by my side. Huh, and yet I thought he changed and would help me. Looks like nothing changed huh?'
"Hah, you really think I cooked this for you? No, a fat pig like you don't deserve food! Stop eating, you are fatter than a pig already ugh!" Every word my brother said felt like a knife stabbing my heart constantly. I quickly took my stuff and ran to the shopping mall to take jimin's stuff and walked to school. I walked in and saw BTS members talking among themselves but what hurts me was hyunnie hugging jimin in front of my locker. Once jimin saw me, he walked towards me and asks if we could talk. 'If I run away, Jimin couldn't break up with me and I'll still stay as his girlfriend and he couldn't hangout with hyunnie openly right? But even if I don't break up with jimin, the only girl jimin will love is sill hyunnie, not me.' I thought sadly. I nodded still looking down. I looked up after nodding and regretted it. I saw hyunnie wearing the necklace jimin bought yesterday. I thought he would give it to me as a breakup gift or whatever but In the end, hyunnie is the only girl on his mind. It really suits her though. I could feel tears trying to escape but I took a deep breath and went to the rooftop with jimin.
Once we reached the rooftop, jimin looked around to check if there's anybody and locked the door comes he's sure there's nobody. Jimin stood opposite of me. I looked down not trying to make any eye contact. He took a deep breath before saying
"Let's break up. You were just a bet from the start. I never loved you nor would I like a person like you. You disgust me, your presence disgusts me, just you being alive disgust me. I don't even know why are you alive. I shouldn't have accepted this bet, going on a date with you is a waste of time. Don't even think that I'll accept you because the only person I love and will love is ..... hyunnie. So stay away from me from now on.
I already knew he would say stuff like this and I told myself to prepare but no matter how much I prepared mentally, it still hurts. I want to cry so badly, I want to scream at him but I couldn't, no voice were coming out. I want to break down in front of him, blame him but I couldn't, I love him too much to the point where I could sacrifice myself for him, to be happy, to be safe, to be with hyunnie... I took a deep breath before looking straight into Jimin eyes with a smile on my face and said
"Sure, let's break up. I dont suit you, hyunnie suit you better. I could tell by how your eyes sparkle everytime you talk or see hyunnie no matter how hard you try. Stay sweet with hyunnie and thanks for all the memories Jimin oppa."
He looked hesitant to leave before turning around, leaving not before whispering
"Goodbye Yoona." And closed the door. I still had a smile on my face and once I confirmed he left, the tears had rolled down and I didn't try to stop it. I cried for hours there and my sobs became louder. Once I've calmed down, I went down and went to jimin's locker and out all his birthday gifts and a wish card and went to my brothers class. I just wanted to talk to him before I leave. I opened his classroom door and I could tell he was shocked to see me standing there as I never talk nor approach him in school.
"Hi Mr.Matt, can I find Chae hyungwon and talk to him for a second?" I asked politely. Mr.Matt nodded and hyungwon came towards me. We stepped outside of the class but our actions could still be seen by the class since the window is transparent and hyungwon's friend is still inside so he would definitely still treat me rudely.
"What do you want?" He asked rudely.
'Told ya.'
"I just wanted to tell you that I forgive you for everything you've done to me. You were just a teenager when you lost your parents so obviously you don't know how to deal with it nor how to deal with your emotions and decided to last it on me but it's okay, I forgive you for everything. And take care of yourself when I'm not around oppa, saranghae." I said with a smile at the end. I wanted to hug him one last time but he pushed me away and said
"What nonsense are you talking about? I have class right now, stop disturbing me, bitch!" He slapped one last time before going back to class and his friends.
I held my hand on my stinging red cheek, look at my brother through the window and saw him staring at me with eyes full of regret. Tears fell thinking that I couldn't hug my brother one last time before I leave. I mouthed ' I love you oppa, no matter what' towards him and went back home.
The house was empty and quiet since everybody left. I went to my room and wrote letters to a few people. I took out a box that is filled with memories of me and jimin. I looked through the stuff, from the photos we took together, to the prize he won for me at the carnival, everything int his box reminds me of jimin. I took the letter I wrote and placed it in the box and stick a paper with words of "For Jimin" on the box. I took the present I bought for hyungwon oppa and placed it in his bedroom in his bed with the letter I wrote for him beside. There are a few more letters for BTS members that I just placed it on my bed. I went to the bathroom and filled the bathtub with water. I took the photo of me kissing Jimin's cheek with me to the bathtub.

I looked at the razor and thought
'Am I ready to do this?'
'Should I do it?'
'It's not like anybody would care right?'

I took one deep breath before using the razor to cut deep on my wrist. Blood started gushing out of my wrist quickly and the clean clear water was soon painted red. The whole bathtub water was red. I could feel I was losing consciousness, I look at the photo one last time, memories of me and jimin going on a date, memories before my parents died all played like a movie. It soon stopped, I whispered "Goodbye World...." before darkness engulf me completely. The photo I took with jimin dropped and it was painted with my fresh blood.
"Goodbye...... Jimin" I thought with a smile on my face before I fell into a very deep sleep and for once, I felt safe and peaceful.

The book has not ended yet!!! Chill, I still have Jimin's POV, Hyungwon's POV, BTS members POV and the letters if u guys want AND a surprise!!! ITS GONNA END SOOOOOON!!! LOVE YOU GUYS FOR ALMOST 20K THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! ❤❤❤