GoodBye [ Jimin X Reader ]

Chapter 34

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HYUNGWON'S POV

After the little chat with Yoona, I went back to my seat and my friends started bashing me with questions like what happened, what's wrong, why is she here but only one caught my attention. "Don't you think you are a bit too rude to her just now?" somebody said. I recognize the voice, it was I.M who said it. I turned around and saw he gave me a serious face that made me had a second thought of what I did there. Did I really? But I only did it for my reputation. I can't lose my reputation just because of her! I ignored his statement and listened to class. Well, maybe not listening as his statement was stuck in my head.

SKIP TO AFTER SCHOOL

The bell rang indicating the last class is over meaning school is over! I had the thought of whether to apologize to Yoona or not and decided to apologize at last. I miss my baby sister after all. After all this year of hating on her, I think its time to make up with her. I know she won't forgive me that easily but ill do anything to make her forgive me. While I'm walking back home, I had a very bad feeling again and I don't know why I kept having that today. I shrugged it off and ran home.

"I'm home! Let's talk Yoona!" I shouted once I reach home. I was greeted with silence. 'Isn't she at home?' I thought and went up after putting my bag down. I passed by my room and went to Yoona's. I knocked on the door but no reply. I opened the door quietly and saw nobody was there. I saw a box on her bed but just shrug it off. I heard water sounds so I assume shes bathing. I went and knock on her bathroom door.

"Yoona are you alright inside? I just wanted to talk to you for everything that happened today." I waited for a reply but I heard nothing.

"Yoona, look I'm really sorry, I know you wouldn't want to talk to me now but please, at least reply me?" Silence.

"Yoona, are you really alright inside? I'm going to kick down the door if you don't give me a response now and I'm not joking!" Silence again. I didn't wait for another second and kicked down the door only to be greeted by something heartbreaking.

"YOONA!" I ran towards her pale body quickly after looking at the scene. Yoona was in a bathtub filled with red due to her blood. Her hand was hanging out and a picture was laying on the ground. I quickly call the ambulance and told them our address then hung up.

"N-No, No Yoona, wake up p-please, w-wake up!" I hit her cold face lightly trying to wake her up. My tears are threatening to fall but I didn't let it as I still have hope that shes still alive. Soon I heard the sound of the ambulance outside. They quickly took Yoona to the ambulance and I followed. Once we reach the hospital I saw lots of doctors and nurse taking Yoona to the surgery room. I wanted to follow but was blocked by a nurse so I have no choice but to stay outside. I sat on the chair with my hands on my knees and my head buried in my hands. Throughout the whole time, I had lots of thoughts like:

'Will she survive? Why did she do it? Was it because of me? Should I tell our adoptive parents? Mum and dad will definitely be disappointed at me!'

That's when everything Yoona said came back to my mind and now it finally made sense. Once I understand and realize everything, my eyes are watering but I still hold it in.

'Why didn't I notice it? When she suddenly changed and ranted everything to me and yet I did nothing about it? When she whispered something underneath her breath, why didn't I questioned it? When she came to my class and ask to talk to me, why did I act so rudely? Why didn't I do anything when I know she's suffering? Because I'm too busy caring about my reputation and how to make her life worst to even noticed that she's dying! She was physically abused and mentally abused and yet I did nothing about it! I'm such a bad brother! Please survive the operation Yoona! I haven't apologized to you face to face for all the things I've done to you!

The door to the surgery room opened and a doctor came out. I immediately went towards the doctor and held his hands asking if Yoona's alright. he only sighed and said "I'm sorry, the patient was already dead before the operation started. All her organs shut down and we can't do anything. We've tried our best, I'm sorry." and walked away. I stood there processing what he just said. Yoona, is dead, really? My legs gave out so I sat there, finally letting my tears flow out after knowing my sister is dead. "N-no...... no, you can't leave me Yoona, don't! I-I'm sorry, I didn't even get to apologize to you, p-please..." the memories of Yoona forgiving me at school came to my mind. 'Is that why you came and forgive me? Because you knew this would happen? I could have saved you but I didn't.... if only I could stand up for you and treated you nicely, you would still be here right now! I'm sorry, I failed as a brother....' I walked back with no emotions. I looked at the once colorful street that I used to love but is no dull and lifeless. 'Is this how Yoona sees the world?' I reached home and saw both my adoptive parents looking at me.

"Wheres Yoona that bitch? She didn't cook for us that useless piece of shit! Should have just killed her. Once she comes back, ill beat her up until she dies! that useless, ugly...." 'Yoona still had to be bad mouthed even though she's dead, can't she rest in peace?' Mrs.Natalie kept rambling but I cut her off.

"Yoona is dead!" it was silent, both of them had a shocked face but Mrs.Natalie quickly said "Well that's good! She's finally dead, isn't that what you want hyungwon-ah?"

"NO! She's my only sister, my only family member and now she's dead. You pushed her to death, I pushed her to death, WE pushed her to death! She doesn't deserve all these, because of me, I made her like this....." I went to her room and take a look at the box. it was filled with stuff and Jimin's photo and a letter. 'Gotta give it to him tomorrow. Do I have to explain to him what happened? I think Yoona will explain in the letter.' I took a look around Yoona's room, I could feel her presence here and it's making me tear up again. I quickly walked to my room with the box in my hand. Once I opened the door, I saw a box on my bed as well as another box. I placed Jimin's box on the floor and opened the box with my name on it. The other box had a name 'JIN' on it. I opened the box and saw a letter, a photo frame, and some gifts. I read the letter first.

"HI oppa! Or should I call you hyungwon since you never allowed me to call you that as you don't want people to know we are related? Anyways I just want to say that it is not your fault that I'm dead, we do stupid stuff and regret it when it's too late. Yes, you may used to abuse me, push me to death and make my life a living hell but who could I blame? You were young when Mum and dad died, you didn't know how to control your emotions. Oh ya, since I can't celebrate your birthday together next year , I'm just going to give you some presents. Everything expect the photo frame is your birthday present ! Happy early birthday oppa!! It's kind of sad how I never celebrated your birthday together anymore but I still do buy a slice of cake and sing the birthday song for you alone at my room. Well at least we get to celebrate my birthday every year ! You would always beat me up during my birthday to remind me that I killed our parents and that I don't deserve love but at least you say 'Happy birthday slut' everytime after u beat me up. Do you see the photo frame? Ya it's our family photo. Last to be exact. I kept it properly!! I wish we could be like last time , smiling and laughing together, but it's impossible now . Although you don't treat me like a sister and never loved me , I'll still love you as my brother because you are the only family member I have left. Happy early birthday and stop blaming yourself for my death. Remember, I forgave you :)
To my one and only brother
From your sister that always loved you. "

I cried more after reading the letter. I look in the box and saw a bunch of expensive gifts from Yoona but I ignored it. I took the photo frame and saw a photo of Mum and dad hugging the young me and Yoona. We were all smiling happily. I hugged the photo frame and went to sleep with a face full of tears.
'Yoona still treats me as a brother after everything I did to her ..... I'm so sorry Yoona, rest in peace, I'll always love you .....'

Jimin's POV next!! But I will not update today as I'm not done writing it I'm so sorry. Will try to update more this week:) THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT GUYS 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️