"Okay Anne you're up."
"Oh the presentation, yep I'm ready."
You'll fail Anne.
I stood in front of the classroom and looked at Brooke.
I took a deep breath
and looked at everyone.
"Thank you Anne"
You did horrible, you did horrible....
YOU WILL FAIL.
I felt my heart beating fast.
I couldn't do anything about it, I already said my useless speech.
Ugh.
...
That night I looked at myself in the mirror,
"Ew"
I hated what I saw.
I took the blade...
And I did one mark, ONE only.
I stared at it without saying a word.
How could you do this Anne? Are you that pathetic....
Mom will see this, remember when she cried?
She'll be mad at you.
The girls will be mad at you for doing this.
People will notice...
I cried, a lot.
I kept repeating to myself
"I'm sorry I'm so sorry....I shouldn't have done this...."
I think I'm going crazy.
Breathe in...Breathe out....
"Honey I'm home! And I have something for you!"
Oh shit....
I put on a sweater and went downstairs.
"Omg the guitare! Finally! It's so beautiful!"
It was a medium sized guitare I would say, it was a dark greenish blue that was like an ombre because in the center It's light blue.
"It's beautiful!"
"I hoped that you would like it!"
"I do! Thanks Mom...."
I placed it on my big thighs and held it in my hands.
I could imagine myself playing and singing...
That night I listened to Sorry by Halsey,
I'm going to learn this!
I was trying to sleep but I couldn't,
I simply stared at darkness.
Then I thought of everything,
Everything going on...
Everything on my mind.
Alexis....
School...
Stress....
Me....
Why do I make things so complicated?
I'm doing this to myself....
What if I just killed myself?
Maybe people would be better without me...
Right?
Right....
"Who would stop me?"
I said out loud...
I felt my arm burning.
I only did one mark...
It's nothing.
Nothing!
No big deal....
I can handle this, I can do more.
Stop fucking talking to yourself,
go to bed...
Bitch...
YOU ARE READING
Fml
Teen Fiction"Are you ok?" "What's wrong?" "Are you sad?" "Everything will be okay". Honestly, I'm not okay, what's wrong? Everything! And why am I sad? Because I can't handle anything anymore and NOTHING will be okay. I don't know why I always need to lie to ev...
