if ↠ raura

162.

| laura's pov |

my body was aching.

i was awake, but i couldn't open my eyes. i heard the sounds around me, more specifically, the machines beeping.

doors were opening and closing, and i felt numb. the first thing i thought about was my baby. did i lose my baby?

"doctor please! i need to see her!" the voice was barley audible from outside the door, but it was ross and i knew it was. everything was a blur, i just felt confused.

the door swings open, and i feel my hand being held and kissed. "oh thank god."

"please mr. lynch, she is unconscious so please keep quiet." the doctor tells him, shutting the door behind him.

ross doesn't let go of my hand. he sighs, and rests his head against my arm. "i love you. i love you so much. please do something to let me know you're awake."

i wanted to open my eyes, i wanted to give him a sign but i was too weak.

"you know," ross pauses. "i never thought i'd be here today. begging god to keep you alive. i never even thought i'd be in this position with you, let alone know you. i got the most beautiful, strong, kind hearted woman in the entire world, and to me, that means way more to me than winning any award, performing on any stage, or anything. this is all i ever wanted laura. and it's you. never in a million years did i think instagram would help me meet the love of my life. that's all i've ever wanted, a partner. love is something complicated that we make so simple, it's having someone to laugh with and someone to care for, someone to have at every hour of the day, and having someone who knows i'd be there for them as well."

ross chuckles painfully as he continues. "i know i fail sometimes. and i know i make you angry, and i know i can hurt you, unintentionally of course, and there's no excuse. but god laura, i've never loved anyone the way i love you, the feelings are real and they're strong as hell. i want you for the rest of my life, i want to experience everything there is to experience as a person, with you. you make my life so much happier, and worth living. please don't leave me, you wouldn't even be in this position if it weren't for me."

i manage to move my hand, and i hold back tears. ross and i have gone through so much.

"baby? laura? oh my god. stay with me, baby. i'm gonna get a doctor!" he exclaims with a sniffle, rushing out of the room.

i hear the sounds from the machines beside me start to increase, and i'm struggling to breath. doctors burst though the door, and they're shouting at ross to leave.

"is she okay! what's happening to her?" i hear ross shout.

i feel myself being shocked, and my eyes shoot open.

"she's awake!" i hear someone exclaim.

everything slowly began to come back, and my head was spinning. i take off my oxygen mask and gasp for air. "my..my baby.."

"shhh." the doctor sighs, placing the mask back onto my face. "you aren't able to breathe yourself yet."

i shoot him my eyes of fear, and he scratches the back of his neck. "i will get doctor pete for you. he will know about your baby."

the door shuts, and i'm left alone with a thousand thoughts circling my brain. a few minutes later, a doctor walks in with a clipboard.

"miss. laura marano, how are you feeling?" he asks me. pointing to the board of smiling faces comparing to sad faces.

i hold up the number four.

"not too well, i suppose." he says, sadly. "do you know what happened to you?"

i shrug my shoulders, which gives me a sharp pain. he sighs, "you were in a serious car accident and ambulance were called to the scene immediately."

i shut my eyes tightly, trying to process everything.

"now, your baby." he sighs.

my hands were trembling as he scanned through the paper. 

"your baby is perfectly fine. luckily, nothing affected the region of your stomach which means your pregnancy isn't at risk and everything is exactly how it should be. but, you did sprain your ankle and break your wrist, along with get a few scrapes on your face, but that should heal within a few weeks." he reassures me.

i sigh of relief, and let go on the tension from my shoulders. i sink back down into the bed and nod, trying to thank him.

"you have a visitor who has been trying to see you all night, would you like to see him? he claims to be your boyfriend." he asks.

i take a few seconds to ponder my decision.

i slowly nod.