Alley Cats Runaway

#17 Glass Hearts

"I love you."
I felt my heart melt like ice. Flutter like a dove's wing.
He loves me?
Wait- do I love him?
I do act strangely around him, and do think strange thoughts about him. Is that love?
"I-I don't know what to say." I say glancing at my white paws, guilty. Ashamed that I haven't made up my mind.

"I mean, I do like you, a lot actually. I wouldn't dream of being separated from you. When Wasp was making her advances I hated it, in fact when any she-cat did I hated it. I just don't know how to feel. Or straighten out my odd feelings." I say. My ears burned in embarrassment.

I sneaked a peek at Jay to find a smile on his face.
"Those odd feelings are love Nut. "
My ears perked.
"Really?" I asked softly.
"Really." He confirmed while giving me a little rub on the nose.

I felt sparks fly. My chest lighter than a feather. I never felt so happy in my life. He loves me! And I love him! We'll be together forever!

Then suddenly I paused.
A thought came to me.
"Why are you telling me this now?" I asked him. Jay licked his chest in embarrassment.
"I wish I had the courage to tell you earlier-"
"When I'm planning to leave?" Then he understood.
"It' s not what it looks like Nut." He defended himself.

"Oh really? To me it looks like you're trying to use this as a way to keep me from going!" I snapped.

"Nutmeg, believe, me I would never-"

"What about what we discussed earlier in the park? Was that all just for show? I told you I'm going alone." I reminded him.

"You don't have to be!" He protested.

"No Jay, I really, really need to go alone. " I say. Jay's face turned into stone, his blue eyes aflame. "You're not doing this for us are you? You're running away!" he accused me. My jaw slackened. "How dare you." I growled.

"How dare I? How dare you? You're the one who's running away like a coward."

"Jay!"

"Running away like Patches! You too seem different but you are really are the same, never considerate of other cat's feelings." Then he snapped around and left, leaving me to realize that I just lost a friend.

Chest heaving, tears spilling I shudder in the cold.

He's just heartbroken Nut, he didn't mean it.

But I sure did.

Glancing at the big moon, hanging in the sky like a white claw, I wonder if my father would aproove of what I am about to do.

is it worth it? All this heartbreak?

It's better than cats dying.

I stare back at where my former friend disappear through.

"I have made up my mind, I'm leaving." I say to no one in particular.

After I gather my emotions.

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Much later, it is midnight when I enter the shelter one last time. I sneak past sleeping cats to my where my family sleeps. snuggling against our mother, Rings and Ginger sleep soundly. While Scout snores on.
"I love you." I whisper. Giving each of them a lick. Then I turn to my exhausted mother. "I'm sorry, but I must do this." I decided.

I left the shelter and slipped away into the darkness of the night.
The begining of my journey to the farmlands.
I was on my own.
That's how it is goingto be.
Just me and the lonely night.

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A/N

Now she's gone! Yes!
Well yes because I am one step closer to finishing.

However I feel so sorry for Jay, and the rest of them.

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