A Thousand Mistakes

Chapter Nine

"Hey baby"

Zayn greets me by my doorstep.

"Hey babe"

We drive to the small ice cream shop that I've been to not that long ago. Zayn said he had to talk to me about something important and I was a little nervous.

"What did you wanna talk about?"

"Promise you won't be upset with me?"

"Is it something bad"

He looked very worried. What did he have to say?

"Um yeah it is actually"

My stomach twisted and turned. I had a very bad feeling about this. Soon he distracted my thoughts.

"Look I don't know how to say this but I um I'm cheating on you"

I was speechless. Cheating really. You have got to be fucking kidding me.

"I knew you would be upset. Emily im so sorry. I couldn't just keep this away from you."

"STOP! Please just stop. I can't take this right now. Everything has been going so great in our lives and you just decide that you can go and cheat on me like that. Well no you can't. I'm done. So fucking done. I'm going, bye."

Zayn's POV

I'm a fuck up. I fucked up so bad. I feel terrible. I just ruined the best thing that ever happened to me. I wish I didn't get drunk off my ass and sleep with Anabell. What was wrong with me. After Emily stormed out of the diner I paid for the food and walked out. I didn't notice that we made a crowd around us but I didn't care. I walked out of the diner. I need a drink. I need to get drunk and forget about everything.

I just noticed that Emily rode with me and didn't have a ride back to her house or where ever she was going. So I got inside my car and decided to go to a bar. Sure I was underage but I knew someone. On the way there I seen Emily walking. Should I ask her if she needed a ride or just let her be. We weren't together anymore but I still care about her. God I was stupid. So damn stupid. What the hell was wrong with me. i just cheated on my girlfriend with her best friend last week. This was some Jerry Springer shit.

Emily's POV

I hate this. I hate this so fucking much. How was I so stupid to go for a bad boy. I just wanted to block out the world. I threw out my blade after I met Zayn. I thought I wouldn't need to cut anymore. Now I was just regretting that decision.

Once I made it home. My mom questioned me but I just ignored her I wasn't ready to talk right now. I went upstairs and took a very long bath. Should I just end it all right here. The water was deep enough. All because of a stupid boy and I was having suicide thoughts.

I decided to not end my life and got out of the bathtub. I got dressed and went into my room. I checked my Facebook. I changed my Facebook status to single and shut off my laptop. And there it was. It was shining on my dresser. A sharpener! I needed this.

I broke the sharpener and got the blade out. It was sharp. Really sharp. Perfect. I locked my door and sat on the ground in front of the door. Time to release this pain.

I cut all the way up my arm. The blood came through and I was relieved. I sat there on the ground both arms full of blood. I was worthless. So stupid and worthless. I just wanted this all to end.

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