My Love is a Star (BTS Suga Fanfiction)

53. The Patch

ZACH'S POV

"Where are the damn pictures, Cindy?"

"The service in the area is just trashy my dear. Wait till we get to the city."

Most people on the bus were still not over the team-building activity we had yesterday. A lot of them were recalling the funny memories they had during the games and who cried the most during the evening circle.

I chose to stay quiet in my seat. My eyes darted at the view from the window. I still had the letter in my hand. I've read it so many times I've actually memorized every single word. I don't know how I should react to it. All I know is it's been taking control of a big chunk of my mind and my chest felt like a 50kg dumbbell ever since I laid my eyes on it.

"I hate the fact that I had to lose you just to make me realize what you really mean to me. I've been feeling the same way all along but I was just too scared to admit it to myself. But now I have nothing else to lose. I don't know if it would change how we are at present but please know that my heart is all yours to keep.

I love you, Zach."

Zie.

"Hey. You've been at it since this morning it's starting to get me jealous." Cindy threw her cute little puppy face at me.

I sighed.

I don't know what to say. This freaking letter just drained the life out of me.
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ROZIE'S POV

A long stretch of sugarcane and cornfields were the only thing I've been seeing for the last half hour. The beach is still visible from afar on the other side of the road. It reminded me of the feelings I buried in the shore.

The waves would've reached it by now. And they would've been carried back to the ocean along with the hope I had for reconciliation. The big waves would've swallowed them whole, pulling them down to the depths of the sea, never to be found again.

I guess there are really certain people in our lives who were meant to just pass along, never to stay.

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ZACH'S POV

I've been staring blankly at the ceiling hoping it would speak to me how I'm supposed to deal with this dilemma I have.

"I love you, Zach."

I can just imagine her saying those words to my face. I've been wanting to hear her say it for so long and she finally did. But why do I still feel this way?

I know others would think I'm stupid when what I want is already in front of me but I'm still having second thoughts about whether to grab it or not.

Trust is really such a big deal to me and it's just too difficult to put all the broken pieces together. I would always go right back to the reason why it's been shattered in the first place. But I'm not gonna be a hypocrite and say that I can just go on and forget about her and how I felt. I tried all means. I even got myself a diversion.

But who am I fooling?

I'm still madly in love with her.
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FLASHBACK

I was up all night getting myself drunk. I usually get all excited when the clock strikes twelve knowing I'd be spending my special day with the girl I love. It's been four years of consistently being with her and unfortunately, this year would end up differently.