morgan and i got into a fight.
i may or may not have called her a pushy clingy bitch.
she kept pushing sex down my throat and every time i turned around, she was asking for me to come over or she was asking to come over to my house.
like i understand we're a couple and everything but i do think it's okay to have some time alone to yourself.
i haven't gotten time to myself since her birthday which was two months ago.
i'm going crazy.
so yeah, i flipped out. it was bound to happen sooner or later.
now...
the sex
i'm not ready.
i feel like sex is a huge thing that people really don't understand. i want to lose my virginity to the right person.
and morgan didn't really seem like that person.
for a week straight, she tried to take things to the next level.
we could be making out and she'll reach down to the waistband of my jeans and then try to unbutton them.
i explained that i wasn't ready each time she attempted but she didn't listen.
of course i stopped her once i realized she wasn't gonna stop.
i did become angry after the second time of having to stop her.
after the argument, she left my house, slamming the door behind her.
apparently my dad was home during the whole thing.
he sat me down and told me the right woman would never try to force me to something i didn't want to do.
she would drop the subject and stop making me uncomfortable.
it was pretty awkward talking to my dad about this kind of thing since we barely every speak but i gave him a chance.
i didn't realize that the strange woman that he would bring home, weren't making an appearance anymore.
i guess he's trying to better himself.
he asked me about amirah.
i said she moved to nebraska.
he laughed.
i hadn't heard his laugh in a long time.
it made me feel weird.
like i was safe.
even though my father wasn't exactly safe... per say.
but i got a sense of security talking to my dad.
it felt good.
after our little talk, he offered to go out for ice cream.
i said yeah.
i needed to get morgan off of my mind.
i'm pretty sure that we broke up.
although morgan was a nice girl, i think i was using her as a distraction.
she was there for me.
but she seemed temporary.
i know we had a lot of laughs and bonded on stupid things.
but i think it's about time i stop acting dumb.
i think it's about time to get amirah back.
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