"she just wasn't for me."
finn finally explained everything to me but it still seemed like a piece was missing but i didn't want to force it out of him.
he'll tell me when he was ready.
"well, all i know is that she cared a lot about you." i said, confusing him.
"what does that even mean?"
i furrowed my brows. " you don't know?"
he shook his head.
"she sent texted everyone on, like, any account she could find and kept telling them to leave you alone and how she was the only one that could make you 'truly happy'"
he looked at me like i had 8 heads.
"you're being serious?"
"so serious, i still have the messages." i pulled out my phone.
"she texted you too?!"
"yeah but mine were worse. look." i handed him my phone.
it was silent for a while as he read the page long dm i got from her.
"that just made me so mad." he threw my phone down next to me.
"it's okay." i shrugged.
"no it's not! if i knew she said shit like that, i wouldn't had given her the time of day!"
"it's whatever. i don't care anymore."
"it still doesn't give her the right to say that though. she's an actual ass. i don't understand how luca was even that close to her."
"yeah, they were pretty close." i agreed.
"i wonder if he knew she was like that." he thought out loud.
"i doubt he does. he only used her to fuck."
he looked at me like i had 60 heads this time.
"fuck?!" he screeched.
"you didn't know that?!" i screeched back.
"no! she told me they were best friend and that they started dating but you fucked him and stole him!"
i laughed.
"what the fuck?! they were friends with benefits! i fucked him once you guys started dating! how didn't you know that?!"
"she told me that they didn't even kiss yet! she's fucking crazy." he ran his hand through his mess of curls.
i couldn't respond because i was laughing so hard.
"she fucked you over so bad!" i screamed.
"how can someone just lie like that?" he laid his head on my lap.
"she has you wrapped around her little finger finny boy." i said as i twirled a frizzy curl.
"i don't understand how i could be so blind." he ran his hand over his face.
"well now you are enlightened."
"i'm so sorry for how i treated you amirah, she had me thinking that you were more of an asshole than you already are."
i slapped his forehead at the hidden insult but still accepted his apology.
"it's okay, you didn't know."
"it still doesn't make sense. how could i trust her over you. it doesn't add up."
i blushed a little.
"well from this point on, i promise to never let someone get in the way of us. i promise i'll never hurt you again." he held out his pinky.
i wrapped my pinky around his.
"i promise i'll never let someone get in the way of us." i recited.
he brought our interlocked hands to his lips as he kissed his fist. i leaned over and kissed mine.
i moved our hands and gave him a kiss on his forehead.
his cheeks flushed a rose color.
he's so handsome.
"you can't do stuff like that when you have a boyfriend." he said.
"who said he was my boyfriend?"
finn sat up and looked at me.
"you guys aren't dating?" he asked.
"i mean, he never asked me so technically no."
he was quiet for a moment.
"do you even like him?"
do i?
he took my silence as an answer.
i mean
sure
luca is cute and all but me and him don't click very well.
"does he treat you right?" suddenly becoming serious.
i nodded quickly this time.
"yeah, he's really nice."
"good. i would've had to fight him."
"you're not a fighter finn." i argued.
"i'll fight for you."
"stop." i giggled.
"why?
it's the truth." he shrugged smiling.
i took my bottom lip between my teeth to keep from smiling so much.
he brought his thumb to my bottom lip, reversing my action.
FUCK
i really want to kiss him
i know i did not just say that.
