The moments that last a life time
Gut wrenching twists
Loss that jabs through the heartAt a loss for words
You gasp and try to breathe
But just choke on the painYour mind won't process it's real
You'll lie to yourself
Unable to believe
The truth or the lieYour brain freezes
Your mind numbs
Your senses fadeSmoldering tears fill your eyes
Faster than sound travels
An immense river gushes forthMaybe you don't shed a tear
Maybe your first reaction
Is blistering anger rising to the peak
From the core to the crust
You erupt like a volcanoUnable to bear the truth
You shut down
Retreating into that safe place
That happy memoryUntil the reality doesn't seem so real
The life drips out from your toes
And all the pain is focused behind your nose
And below your chinThe nightmare takes hold
No colors pop anymore
They're all blending together
Bleeding into darker shadesThe tears fall
As the emotions rage
You have no controlYou are lost
All these feelings you can't comprehend
And it feels like every wall has boxed you in
The walls in your head shrink
And fire burns through your whole beingYou bargain with life with death with god with yourself
To let you wake up
To trade placesBut time goes on
Slowly
But while you stood there
Feeling everything you just read
Only a few seconds actually passed
Suffering slows time down
To a fraction of its original paceOnly a few seconds pass
When you receive that blow
And you break down
Internally
Externally
Completely shut offYou won't ever forget
Every instance in life
That one moment
Lasts a life time
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I try to look up to the stars when I feel lost, and I am very lost
PoetryA collection of mostly sad poems Most of these are raw and unrefined One take or they don't make the grade Usually birthed after 2am