I try to look up to the stars when I feel lost, and I am very lost

Bipolar

I'm feeling a mix of emotion
Not sure what color I'll be each day
Dyeing my mood
Today I'm feeling blue
All because I woke up
And thought of you
And it's painful to say
That I miss you too

This evening I'm feeling green
I sat by the side and saw you both
Watching the sunset gleam
Just like we used to
So all I feel is green
I'm jealous of all I've seen

Dying my mood black
Like the end
The blue
The green
Both begin to blend
Starting to feel my mood
Mix to cyan
I've wanted a do-over
Since the end first began
And I want it to end
How these colors continue to blend

Starting a fresh new day so I start blank
White as paper lighter than a cloud
Carefree and unhinged
Any color could change me
Any thought dye my mood

Suddenly I feel red
Burning rage and distaste
Part of me wishes you would drop dead
Sit you down with me
Listing off every lie you ever fed
I feel it taking over
I'm feeling too red

Adding more white to reset
I feel a hot shade of pink
Luxurious and narcissistic
My true color at times
I won't ever fix it
Pink mood
Petty and pretty
Causing you to grow envious
Being the target of attention
Is quite strenuous

I never know what color I'll be
Each morning it's new
Some days it's green or yellow and blue
I've resorted to grey
To keep myself from feeling too much today